聖誕夜晚的禮物，是我孤獨的夜晚
父母去了雲頂，寧願沈迷賭博也不要陪伴他的孩子度過聖誕夜。
朋友們都忙著與家人慶祝，似乎就除了我。
聖誕夜的禮物，是我無比的心疼
看著失望的臉孔，我也只能盡力的把歡樂帶給妹妹，努力的想辦法度過。把我們在聖誕夜裡拋棄的父母，你們覺得快了嗎？
也許他們不會了解，可是他們已錯過了我的童年，他們還想放棄妹妹的童年嗎？
聖誕夜的禮物，是我失望的淚滴
原來慶祝聖誕日不比上雲頂來的重要，原來可以為了父母犧牲小我的我是那麼的渺小，那麼地不應人注目，在他們眼中的我和妹妹，不比賭博來的重要。還不只這樣，這只是初步，過年時，他們打算又再一次的拋下我們，獨自到國外旅行。需要二人世界，隨時都可以，為何總是要在特別的節日裡離開？
聖誕夜的禮物，是我腦海裡的煩惱
說了經濟問題出現的人是父母，花錢去賭博的也是你們，我該相信什麼？ 我為了你們，改了我想出國讀書的夢想，你們又犧牲了什麼？
我自己的煩惱卻重來沒曾讓你們知道，就是不要你們為我操心，你們呢？
我瞭解不是每個父母都是完美的，但就只請你別把賭博看得比我們還要重要，別讓我在"父母"這兩個字上"失望"。。。
Saturday, December 24, 2011
Friday, December 23, 2011
Thursday, December 22, 2011
合作？？？ 只是個傳說！
能合作的人類，在這個時代里，可以說快要絕種了。現代的人，不如從前的日子那麼的從滿熱心，今日的人們為了利益，為了自己的方便什麼都做得出來，還有合作的存在嗎？
說實話，我越來越覺得現代人越來越可怕，就連自己的親戚也是自私自利的人種。
就如那天我朋友舉辦的聖誕日演唱會，原本是一個團體的活動，卻變成是我朋友自己一手舉辦的活動，而他就像當了活生生的用具。合作是那麼難嗎？為什麼不選這合作，卻想著要利用別人完成自己該做的責任呢？
就連自己的親戚也是這樣，跟我爸爸打工的表哥可說為了自己卻不盡力的去做他應該做的工作，喜歡偷懶的他似乎不想為這間公司的前途跟我爸他合作，就連小孩子也想得出，如果公司發展的好，得到的薪水不是也越高嗎？但有些人就是想法不夠遠，還在那兒拼命的要求加新卻自己沒什麼進步。合理嗎？
關於我就不比說了，你們也知道，為了一個團體活動，我自己賣命的一手舉辦它，卻那些應該負者的人，人間蒸發，消失無影。
人類的懶性就是那麼的旺盛，就選總於願意合作了，也會似乎在敷衍你地做事，結果給你的是一個沒有用處的爛東西。
不合作是一件事，合作了卻把事情搞得一團糟又是另一件煩惱的問題。
是否每次要合作時，想合作的人卻不知道自己要的是什麼？或者出現了一群拼命反撥你，對你每個決定都有意見的人？
這就是問題的所在。有些事在這麼溝通也似乎不能讓別人明白，他們不知道你要的是什麼，到後來就假裝自己明白因為不想在麻煩你解釋，可是這些錯誤的想法，卻導致整個活動都被搞亂。
所以有時候就只好自己動手，免得這些人把自己的要的目標搞得一團糟。
另一種人就是那些顯得沒是做，想找人肖消悶，所以就拿你的活動當自己的出氣瓶。這些人故意反對你每一個意見，然後給那些不合理，不理智的意見，而拖慢了整個活動的計劃。這些人渴望的只是別人的注意，卻拿你來當宰品。結果同意了之後，卻因為不服氣就自作主張亂搞所謂的"創意"，結果就被搞亂了。
其實，合作並不難，如果能以大體為重，也許合作就不是一個問題了，可我們知道，這比登天還要難。
世界的人就是這樣，沒的救了。還是自己做好本分，自己靠自己比較好。 因為，只有自己能信賴。
說實話，我越來越覺得現代人越來越可怕，就連自己的親戚也是自私自利的人種。
就如那天我朋友舉辦的聖誕日演唱會，原本是一個團體的活動，卻變成是我朋友自己一手舉辦的活動，而他就像當了活生生的用具。合作是那麼難嗎？為什麼不選這合作，卻想著要利用別人完成自己該做的責任呢？
就連自己的親戚也是這樣，跟我爸爸打工的表哥可說為了自己卻不盡力的去做他應該做的工作，喜歡偷懶的他似乎不想為這間公司的前途跟我爸他合作，就連小孩子也想得出，如果公司發展的好，得到的薪水不是也越高嗎？但有些人就是想法不夠遠，還在那兒拼命的要求加新卻自己沒什麼進步。合理嗎？
關於我就不比說了，你們也知道，為了一個團體活動，我自己賣命的一手舉辦它，卻那些應該負者的人，人間蒸發，消失無影。
人類的懶性就是那麼的旺盛，就選總於願意合作了，也會似乎在敷衍你地做事，結果給你的是一個沒有用處的爛東西。
不合作是一件事，合作了卻把事情搞得一團糟又是另一件煩惱的問題。
是否每次要合作時，想合作的人卻不知道自己要的是什麼？或者出現了一群拼命反撥你，對你每個決定都有意見的人？
這就是問題的所在。有些事在這麼溝通也似乎不能讓別人明白，他們不知道你要的是什麼，到後來就假裝自己明白因為不想在麻煩你解釋，可是這些錯誤的想法，卻導致整個活動都被搞亂。
所以有時候就只好自己動手，免得這些人把自己的要的目標搞得一團糟。
另一種人就是那些顯得沒是做，想找人肖消悶，所以就拿你的活動當自己的出氣瓶。這些人故意反對你每一個意見，然後給那些不合理，不理智的意見，而拖慢了整個活動的計劃。這些人渴望的只是別人的注意，卻拿你來當宰品。結果同意了之後，卻因為不服氣就自作主張亂搞所謂的"創意"，結果就被搞亂了。
其實，合作並不難，如果能以大體為重，也許合作就不是一個問題了，可我們知道，這比登天還要難。
世界的人就是這樣，沒的救了。還是自己做好本分，自己靠自己比較好。 因為，只有自己能信賴。
旅途中尋找的意義
什麼是旅行的意義？
也許你會認為，旅遊是為了認識世界各地，去讓自己見識神聖的聖地，美麗的世外桃源，或是充滿歷史性的建築物，你不錯。
我們旅遊時都會懷著不一樣的旅遊意義，而這些旅遊的意義並不難尋找。
但有些人，會以不適當的想法，和不合理的觀念定下了不對的意義。
有些人以為，旅行是越貴就越有意義，或者是賣得越多東西就越有意義。但這些觀念是以物質要求的想法頂下的意義。這些虛榮的人類，在旅行時所享受的不是自己看見的週圍環境而是在享受他正在花錢的過程，或是在享受他花了錢旅遊的事實。往往這些人，越多次旅行，就越捕捉不了真正的旅行意義
我的觀念也許跟您的不一樣，但我不認為它有錯。
對我來說，旅行不需要豪華，不需要購物，更不需要是世界的景點。
我旅行的地點不需要是繁榮的城市，或是美麗的花園。
我需要的是一家人，或一群朋友能在一起度過。這才是對我來說最重要的。「在一起」就是我履行的意義，能在一起才是重點。
我不需要去觀看世界，我只需要看見友情和親情的顯示。
也許因為我是個這樣的人吧。。。所以和朋友郊遊，我不會特意的注重地點，反而是會來參加的朋友。當朋友問我地點時，我都會說隨便。。。現在你們明白了吧。。。我出遊的意義和旅遊的意義是一樣的，那就是「在一起」
也許你會認為，旅遊是為了認識世界各地，去讓自己見識神聖的聖地，美麗的世外桃源，或是充滿歷史性的建築物，你不錯。
我們旅遊時都會懷著不一樣的旅遊意義，而這些旅遊的意義並不難尋找。
但有些人，會以不適當的想法，和不合理的觀念定下了不對的意義。
有些人以為，旅行是越貴就越有意義，或者是賣得越多東西就越有意義。但這些觀念是以物質要求的想法頂下的意義。這些虛榮的人類，在旅行時所享受的不是自己看見的週圍環境而是在享受他正在花錢的過程，或是在享受他花了錢旅遊的事實。往往這些人，越多次旅行，就越捕捉不了真正的旅行意義
我的觀念也許跟您的不一樣，但我不認為它有錯。
對我來說，旅行不需要豪華，不需要購物，更不需要是世界的景點。
我旅行的地點不需要是繁榮的城市，或是美麗的花園。
我需要的是一家人，或一群朋友能在一起度過。這才是對我來說最重要的。「在一起」就是我履行的意義，能在一起才是重點。
我不需要去觀看世界，我只需要看見友情和親情的顯示。
也許因為我是個這樣的人吧。。。所以和朋友郊遊，我不會特意的注重地點，反而是會來參加的朋友。當朋友問我地點時，我都會說隨便。。。現在你們明白了吧。。。我出遊的意義和旅遊的意義是一樣的，那就是「在一起」
Two made a pack.......
Yesterday was my parents 20th anniversary, the first 20 years of a secured relationship. The twenty years of love that brought rise to a wonderful family. It is kinda cliche but wasn't it amazing to think that it is the same day 20years before, the decision that has made that day and the event that taken place which bring about my existence in this world?
I am very grateful of the family I have, the parents that bring me into this world. To see that they have gone through thickset and thins together in these 20years of relationship really inspired me towards the meaning of love.After seeing what both of them has, it made me believed in foreverness... there is still hope for love.
The party went quite well (I did not understand why, but it seems that my Father insisted in having a party when really..... Anniversary is something that involves only 2 person). I helped out a lot in making the party "happening". There was Kentucky, pizzas, fried food, sandwiches(made by me and is very selling ;D ), various drinks including alcohols. Quite a lot of johorians attended the party, mostly my father's friends.... Including his lorry drivers.
The event lasted until 12 which we then start cleaning up, the part I hated most is that my father was ordering us to cleaning things up but he just walk here and there looking busy but when really...... he did nothing. Then we start heating up the left overs and brought out the ice cream and start having some family time.... The odds are here..... No one wished them "happy anniversary" except me being the only one and yet it was already 12++ which mean I missed the celebration. I know I am not suppose to say anything more but I backed up my late wishes by saying their marriage certificate is valid at the next year of their marriage (married in late December, register 3 days after ceremony, certificate issued in january) ...... I guess that's me, always backing myself up out of insecurity.
I think everything went well, I've contributed the most in setting up the party and is the one cleaning up most of the rubbishes. That's my present to you all, after all, if I buy any present, it would be your money, so it's like you all are buying things for yourself.
I am very grateful of the family I have, the parents that bring me into this world. To see that they have gone through thickset and thins together in these 20years of relationship really inspired me towards the meaning of love.After seeing what both of them has, it made me believed in foreverness... there is still hope for love.
The party went quite well (I did not understand why, but it seems that my Father insisted in having a party when really..... Anniversary is something that involves only 2 person). I helped out a lot in making the party "happening". There was Kentucky, pizzas, fried food, sandwiches(made by me and is very selling ;D ), various drinks including alcohols. Quite a lot of johorians attended the party, mostly my father's friends.... Including his lorry drivers.
The event lasted until 12 which we then start cleaning up, the part I hated most is that my father was ordering us to cleaning things up but he just walk here and there looking busy but when really...... he did nothing. Then we start heating up the left overs and brought out the ice cream and start having some family time.... The odds are here..... No one wished them "happy anniversary" except me being the only one and yet it was already 12++ which mean I missed the celebration. I know I am not suppose to say anything more but I backed up my late wishes by saying their marriage certificate is valid at the next year of their marriage (married in late December, register 3 days after ceremony, certificate issued in january) ...... I guess that's me, always backing myself up out of insecurity.
I think everything went well, I've contributed the most in setting up the party and is the one cleaning up most of the rubbishes. That's my present to you all, after all, if I buy any present, it would be your money, so it's like you all are buying things for yourself.
猜不透。。。
想瞭解別人的想法，為甚麼總比想瞭解自己的想法來的容易呢？
往往當別人的旁觀者，總是能把別人看的一清二楚。卻在自己人生裡的我們，卻是永遠都不了解自己的當局者。
難道。。。真是如偉人所說的，所謂當局者迷，旁觀者清？
有時候，我很瞭解自己的一舉一動，「為什麼」和「要什麼」從來不是我會煩惱的問題。我不能不承認，我又失控了。不耐煩的我又開始對所有的事與物都覺得討厭。不知道為什麼自己會如此的失敗。這問題應該是我來到了johor才開始的，也許這裡的頻率根本不適合我吧。。。
月光照亮下的夜晚裡，鋪滿了一閃一閃的亮星星，茫茫星海中，最亮的星星永遠都是自己，但再亮也好，一轉眼，就在一次的遺失了自己。
在人海里的我，看見了形形色色的人，卻遺失了自己。茫茫人海里，我到底是誰？
往往當別人的旁觀者，總是能把別人看的一清二楚。卻在自己人生裡的我們，卻是永遠都不了解自己的當局者。
難道。。。真是如偉人所說的，所謂當局者迷，旁觀者清？
有時候，我很瞭解自己的一舉一動，「為什麼」和「要什麼」從來不是我會煩惱的問題。我不能不承認，我又失控了。不耐煩的我又開始對所有的事與物都覺得討厭。不知道為什麼自己會如此的失敗。這問題應該是我來到了johor才開始的，也許這裡的頻率根本不適合我吧。。。
月光照亮下的夜晚裡，鋪滿了一閃一閃的亮星星，茫茫星海中，最亮的星星永遠都是自己，但再亮也好，一轉眼，就在一次的遺失了自己。
在人海里的我，看見了形形色色的人，卻遺失了自己。茫茫人海里，我到底是誰？
肉骨茶記
原本以心胸開懷的心情和開朗的笑容；帶著我家裡的開心果表妹，去吃pandamaran一個蠻出名的肉骨茶攤。平常都爆滿客人，人山人海的那攤子，位子可說是非常稀少。當天，帶著笑容的我，在找到位子時，就馬上衝下車，先把佔那位子。當時，侍應正在清理前客留下的垃圾，我也只能在旁邊先等著。但有些目中無人，自以為是，霸道及無奈的白癡，就在我面前剝奪了我位子的權利。
很不服氣的，我瞪著他的臉但這只死不要臉的王八蛋，可"它"就像若無其事的不理睬我。此時，就在後面，我表妹突然找到了位子。抱著「多一件事，不入少一件事」的原則，我就離開了。所謂忍一時風平浪靜，退一步海闊天空，跟這種動物有過節，只顯得我沒品而已。。。所以就不跟"它"計較了。
事後，他應該發現我生氣的樣子(因為，到了另一桌時，很無奈的拍了桌面一小下) 還在那用他的狗眼瞪著我。這時就跟我妹妹發起了audrey的精神"要看就給他看啦，我們漂亮嗎！"
過了不久，那王八蛋好像吃不下肚，離開了，當時的我更氣。已經讓位給你坐了，你還離開？真是不懂這些怪人的想法，結果整個晚餐卻讓自己吃不下肚，只吃了兩碗飯，胃口少了足足50%。媽媽問為什麼時，我只答了＂氣飽了"。。。。 (￣ー￣)
很不服氣的，我瞪著他的臉但這只死不要臉的王八蛋，可"它"就像若無其事的不理睬我。此時，就在後面，我表妹突然找到了位子。抱著「多一件事，不入少一件事」的原則，我就離開了。所謂忍一時風平浪靜，退一步海闊天空，跟這種動物有過節，只顯得我沒品而已。。。所以就不跟"它"計較了。
事後，他應該發現我生氣的樣子(因為，到了另一桌時，很無奈的拍了桌面一小下) 還在那用他的狗眼瞪著我。這時就跟我妹妹發起了audrey的精神"要看就給他看啦，我們漂亮嗎！"
過了不久，那王八蛋好像吃不下肚，離開了，當時的我更氣。已經讓位給你坐了，你還離開？真是不懂這些怪人的想法，結果整個晚餐卻讓自己吃不下肚，只吃了兩碗飯，胃口少了足足50%。媽媽問為什麼時，我只答了＂氣飽了"。。。。 (￣ー￣)
Wednesday, December 21, 2011
hypocrites..... we all know some!!!
DURING PRIMARY SCHOOL
met one indian guy which is a total liar.....
said he has a house of a size of white house, in which has a big swimming pool and statues of him around the swimming pool. spread rumors about people to get himself attention. eg. he would say someone accidentally hanged his "organ" out after the going to the toilet..... obviously illogical.
he would team up with someone to bully me with words and even physically bullied me during primary.
then he would sing "lonely from akon" when he grabs all my friends away from me during primary.
what i did?
told my parents and had him brought to the principle room, he was crying like a pig and apologising to me while i just stand there with a cold look.
this idiot continue to become a hypocrite in secondary, he lied about celebrities like girls, lied about his results, and many more.....
is this some sort of karma? i think so...... he even lied to his parents about his SPM result, finally, even his best friend left him.
thats what happened, you take away something from someone, you will lose more than what you grab, thats karma.
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DURING HIGH SCHOOL
i've met this one extreme hypocrite whom lied about learning spanish, whom lied about being rich, and even lied about me in front of others because i found the truth of his lies. not only that, he is arrogant for the wealth he doesn't have.... t seems that he uses colon when he comes to school, marc jacob, burberry, calvin klein and all types of brand which he says he has. all i smell is some cheap perfume girls buy in pasar malam.
how i payback? he copied in exam by pressing the words using an inkless pen on the paper, caught him red handed and forced the teacher to take action by threathening the teacher. besides, i spread rumours of his stupid actions and lies among the TEACHERS.... especially when his mother is also a teacher there which he always act cute in front of his mom
when the teacher/his mom enters our class
hypocrite: GOOD MORNING............. MOM............ CHEH, CANNOT CALL MOM, MUST CALL TEACHER...... ;) then acts cute again in front of other teacher(his mom's friends) which he calls them AUNTY in SCHOOL.
after that, i continue spreading rumors of him in front of the teachers until him and his mother's name become bad....
i did not know what happen to him now just know that he is currenly studying in russia.
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DURING COLLEGE
met with this bitch i have always been talking about, which bitched about me in front of my collegemates which they stupidly beleved every word he said, (read those previous post i posted, you will know how bitchy this person is for cheap publicity)
he currently went on a vacation, which i hope he accidentally landed in a deserted island full of flesh-eating monsters...... but i think before he die, he will bitch with those monsters first....(not cursing, just imagining)
this bitch is arrogant like hell for something which is not even significant.
cant act, no talent, no really outstanding in anything but he will act as if he is the top of the world
me: your house is so huge...
bitch: I KNOW RITE....
(at the time i was like..... BITCH PLEASE..... rahu's house is bigger... yours is just an old botanic crap!!!)
then i met with one college classmate which is a girl..... pity her who dun even know that the whole class hates her.... finally, she realise the class is discriminating her, but for some stupid excuse the other classmate uses to hide the fact, she believed it and was back to becoming their friends....
why is she a hypocrite? posted all those quotes and phrases about friendship and love in FACEBOOK in which she is the one who dun even understand a bit. she is NAIVE and she didn't know it. she even try to cover up the fact that she did not do well in math exam, like me, i suck in math and i am willing to accept the fact, but when you try to cover it up when i found out..... its funny. not because you did badly(i dun laugh at people for that, its SINFUL) but because of the way she is TRYING to hide it up.
and then there is these two realistic busmates, act like saints in front of me, giving me all those life quotes, advises, and useless long talks.... but they din follow any of what they are saying.....
these are the worst type among all, faking to be a saint is just pure hyprocrite and pure evil. when the fact is, they are superbly realistic. why i say so? completely ignored me once i left the gang due to the presence of the bitch i mentioned in that gang.... yet they say they are not realistic when the proof and the facts lies just in fornt of their face. one of them forgot to wish me happy birthday and ended up wishing me late in 11.30 pm. then says she is an extremist. MY FOOT!!! when you nearly forgot, just tell the truth, people might still forgive you. another one, is kinda pity..... ignored me, when i left the gang, now he is being ignored by his best friend(that bitch) which he is now even more lonely than i do..... karma? i think so =)
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despite all the hypocrites that bitches in my life.... i did not really took any action EVEN IF I HAVE THE CHANCE (damn..... regretted) cuz i would feel guilty ruining someone's life and that karma will get back to me instead...... except that hypocrite in high school, he is being too much for telling the whole class i complained to teacher that the whole class copied in exam.... just because i am a teacher's pet, i dun bitch with teachers, i am not that low level....... teachers like me because i am interested in every study session.... they admire my passion for studying not for being priasing and wiping their ass...... those are teacher's bitch not teacher's pet.... pls understand the difference.
btw, i completely ignored my languange usage here, just simply write out of sudden anger due to flash back of these b*tch.
met one indian guy which is a total liar.....
said he has a house of a size of white house, in which has a big swimming pool and statues of him around the swimming pool. spread rumors about people to get himself attention. eg. he would say someone accidentally hanged his "organ" out after the going to the toilet..... obviously illogical.
he would team up with someone to bully me with words and even physically bullied me during primary.
then he would sing "lonely from akon" when he grabs all my friends away from me during primary.
what i did?
told my parents and had him brought to the principle room, he was crying like a pig and apologising to me while i just stand there with a cold look.
this idiot continue to become a hypocrite in secondary, he lied about celebrities like girls, lied about his results, and many more.....
is this some sort of karma? i think so...... he even lied to his parents about his SPM result, finally, even his best friend left him.
thats what happened, you take away something from someone, you will lose more than what you grab, thats karma.
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DURING HIGH SCHOOL
i've met this one extreme hypocrite whom lied about learning spanish, whom lied about being rich, and even lied about me in front of others because i found the truth of his lies. not only that, he is arrogant for the wealth he doesn't have.... t seems that he uses colon when he comes to school, marc jacob, burberry, calvin klein and all types of brand which he says he has. all i smell is some cheap perfume girls buy in pasar malam.
how i payback? he copied in exam by pressing the words using an inkless pen on the paper, caught him red handed and forced the teacher to take action by threathening the teacher. besides, i spread rumours of his stupid actions and lies among the TEACHERS.... especially when his mother is also a teacher there which he always act cute in front of his mom
when the teacher/his mom enters our class
hypocrite: GOOD MORNING............. MOM............ CHEH, CANNOT CALL MOM, MUST CALL TEACHER...... ;) then acts cute again in front of other teacher(his mom's friends) which he calls them AUNTY in SCHOOL.
after that, i continue spreading rumors of him in front of the teachers until him and his mother's name become bad....
i did not know what happen to him now just know that he is currenly studying in russia.
__________________________________________________________________________________
DURING COLLEGE
met with this bitch i have always been talking about, which bitched about me in front of my collegemates which they stupidly beleved every word he said, (read those previous post i posted, you will know how bitchy this person is for cheap publicity)
he currently went on a vacation, which i hope he accidentally landed in a deserted island full of flesh-eating monsters...... but i think before he die, he will bitch with those monsters first....(not cursing, just imagining)
this bitch is arrogant like hell for something which is not even significant.
cant act, no talent, no really outstanding in anything but he will act as if he is the top of the world
me: your house is so huge...
bitch: I KNOW RITE....
(at the time i was like..... BITCH PLEASE..... rahu's house is bigger... yours is just an old botanic crap!!!)
then i met with one college classmate which is a girl..... pity her who dun even know that the whole class hates her.... finally, she realise the class is discriminating her, but for some stupid excuse the other classmate uses to hide the fact, she believed it and was back to becoming their friends....
why is she a hypocrite? posted all those quotes and phrases about friendship and love in FACEBOOK in which she is the one who dun even understand a bit. she is NAIVE and she didn't know it. she even try to cover up the fact that she did not do well in math exam, like me, i suck in math and i am willing to accept the fact, but when you try to cover it up when i found out..... its funny. not because you did badly(i dun laugh at people for that, its SINFUL) but because of the way she is TRYING to hide it up.
and then there is these two realistic busmates, act like saints in front of me, giving me all those life quotes, advises, and useless long talks.... but they din follow any of what they are saying.....
these are the worst type among all, faking to be a saint is just pure hyprocrite and pure evil. when the fact is, they are superbly realistic. why i say so? completely ignored me once i left the gang due to the presence of the bitch i mentioned in that gang.... yet they say they are not realistic when the proof and the facts lies just in fornt of their face. one of them forgot to wish me happy birthday and ended up wishing me late in 11.30 pm. then says she is an extremist. MY FOOT!!! when you nearly forgot, just tell the truth, people might still forgive you. another one, is kinda pity..... ignored me, when i left the gang, now he is being ignored by his best friend(that bitch) which he is now even more lonely than i do..... karma? i think so =)
___________________________________________________________________________________
despite all the hypocrites that bitches in my life.... i did not really took any action EVEN IF I HAVE THE CHANCE (damn..... regretted) cuz i would feel guilty ruining someone's life and that karma will get back to me instead...... except that hypocrite in high school, he is being too much for telling the whole class i complained to teacher that the whole class copied in exam.... just because i am a teacher's pet, i dun bitch with teachers, i am not that low level....... teachers like me because i am interested in every study session.... they admire my passion for studying not for being priasing and wiping their ass...... those are teacher's bitch not teacher's pet.... pls understand the difference.
btw, i completely ignored my languange usage here, just simply write out of sudden anger due to flash back of these b*tch.
Saturday, December 17, 2011
三千煩惱絲。。。
而我。。。一件事都還沒完成，就連我的"holiday resoution" 上的事都還沒做。
還沒完成的假期作業，還沒曾開始的職務，想了也真的要人的命。。。
這還不只，未曾買到的新服，讓自己覺得缺少些甚麼。
今日和昨日，在大學里擺了無所謂的攤子。。。買了賣不出去的東西，這就教訓那些自以為是，自作聰明的人，不跟全體的人先商量就自做決定。結果還要人幫他收拾殘局。 有些"天才"以為在大學開放日里能賣出自設計的衣服，結果呢？自己沒來，還要我幫他照顧攤子。
我真覺得這世界裡，真的沒有負責任的人了，已經全死光了。
我看到現在，賣出去的也只有6件衣服。那也是大學裡的老師及同學幫忙地。外來的顧客一個也沒有，這比排蒼蠅還要悶。
那是一件事，另一件事就是最近一直忙不過來的朋友郊遊，我不方便提供名字，但一定不會是你的。。。。kah yong, 知道你會懷疑的，所以先說明，不是再講你。 有些人，真是有夠"貼心" 不知道該說是「他很想出去」 還是「我很好利用」
但有一句話我要奉告天下的是。。。當你在利用我時，不要以為我不知道，我沒那麼笨，我只是選擇保持這分友誼而已，不要欺人太甚。我要跟你玩陰毒時，你最好連睡覺也開一隻眼閉一隻眼睡。這句話，不只要給那些以為可以利用到我的人而已，也要給那些良心被狗撣走的低級動物，就如我大學裡的那只母狗，和最近，把我當笨蛋看待的妖精。這只妖精以為說自己在雲頂，就可以當理由沒辦法祝我生日快樂，事實上，因為沒有Facebook, 他就完完全全把我給忘了。回來了才記得我的存在，祝我時還是在他自己的Facebook戶口里。問問自己吧，這種人低級不低級？
簡直跟我大學裡的同學一樣。只是大學裡的那群人比較青出於藍而已。
不說了，說了只讓自己更生氣。
今天在radio上聽到了讓我覺得不錯的一句話。
「如果讓自己見了的人，會不開心的話，那就想辦法不要在去見那個人了，想辦法避開，為甚麼要讓自己難受呢？」
如果決定要忘了一件事或一個人的話，那就徹底的忘了他，把他當透明看，這是最高境界的目標，但不是每個人說了就做的到，往往說了卻一直忘不了。 這時，上面的那句話，就是你們的金詞了。
Thursday, December 15, 2011
a blessed birthday....
This birthday itself is already extraordinary, it's been 18 years of my life, and now i am beginning to unfold the chapter of adulthood... it's been amazing to have known that you lived 18 years of your life, i was kinda scared to enter adulthood at first(true story) but i realised that it's nothing but a matter of life journey, after all, age is just numbers if we do not see it as important. i am really thankful for the lessons i've learnt, and the people who have grown old with me in these 18 years, life itself has thought me most of the valueable lesson to ensure i grow with each experience.
Perhaps, today was meant to be a perfect day for me, klang was raining cats and dogs but somehow, i was in AEON all the time, without being able to see the downpour... lucky you said? i said it's destined. i truly believed today was perfected by someone of higher power up there for me... i did not see the rain fall, but somehow, the before and after weather of rain, soothing, cold, and most importantly beautiful.... the temperature is just nice like i would love the weather to be, the clouds synchronise in perfect curls like i would prefer it. and the lightings of the sky are just too beautiful itself.
however, it wasn't just the weather that has been perfected, but the journey of my birthday itself, the celebration went on like a crazy party although the people celebrating it with me wasn't as much.
here, if you read these, i would like to present my deepest appreciation towards the things you all have done today to clelebrate my entering of adulthood.
my friends celebrated this important event (to me) in greenbox karaoke at AEON.... it was nothing but pure awesome-ness and fun. we sang like celebrities, ignoring the keys we sang at, or the melody we followed, all was just too great and yet with only four people, the fun was never before. i guess what's important in determining happiness is not the crowd but the people inside the crowd, you don't need a thousand people to make your day, you just need one true friend to make it worthwhile. and this truly linked to the ADVISE my mom always told me "you don't need a thousand friends, you just need a BEST friend" one true friend whom you enjoy being with is comparable to a thousand people whom would hurt your feelings with words and actions.
the karaoke as said was superb! we sang from chinese songs to english songs and back to chinese songs....
and among all, my favourite was when we sang BAD ROMANCE when i ROCKED the stage! it was awesome especially when i've sung it in a karaoke centre, the second bomb for me was CLOSE TO YOU when audrey and i sung that song twice in a row in duet. the reason for that song was to tease kah yong and his __________ (fill in the blanks). it went completely awesome and quite memorable, having to high five with audrey constantly for every CREATIVE lyrics we made up while we sang in a flow.
i may not understand why kah yong said my voice is nice, when really i croaked along with the mike, nevertheless, i enjoyed him praising me for my singging unlike my sisters in which ON MY BIRTHDAY PRESENT WRITES "can you quit singging?" and which i immediatly answered her................... "NO!"
i sing to express my feelings, thus the song i listen too varies accordingly to my mood, so you can just judge me from the song i listen too, but its not all the time true.... be smart =)
******** the fist formation *********
after that, we went card choosing as audrey and i needed to buy greeting cards. the motive i held is that i would like to thank my mom for giving birth to me in this very same day 18 years ago. i gave her a membership card of her favourite coffee store, yes you got it.......... STARBUCKS CARD. where she could enjoy lotsa previleges and the rm20 value inside the card. Usually having a cool yet interesting expression, she seemed happy but not trilled to accept my gift (same when i bought her a cake during her birthday. but she reacted differently during valentines, how UNFAIR???). i could not help but jokingly tell her, "ei.... you not happy ar ?" then immediately she turned into our family clown and acted likeshe just won lottery.... thats my mom, funny, interesting, understanding, wise and friendly. it's no wonder her borthers always turn to her for comfort when they had trouble. maybe she is the angel, god sent to me. (GOSH, THAT MEANS I AM AN ANGEL'S SON *TROLL FACE*)
soon but not too late, i insist that my mom buy me a cake and pizza to celebrate. yes, you got it right, i insisted, and its kinda funny that the birthday boy/man is insisting that his family celebrates his birthday.... but, there is no need for shame or hidings in my family, everything is open. and thats how our family bonding is stronger than any family out there, I AM PROUD TO BE IN THIS FAMILY.
my sis actually got kinda jealous when her bithday earlier was celebrated without a cake and i had an ICE CREAM CAKE...... anyway, lets move on!
the cake was already melting when it arrived, we did not waste another single minute and started to set up the cake for a birthday song..... just as soon as the birthday song was over, i made my wish and we started DIGGING INTO THE CAKE with our spoon and knife...... no one bothered ensuring the melted ice cream did not flow onto the table, everyone just start digging for scoops of tasty, aromatic, icy ice cream. it was tasty (of course it is, what am i saying, its baskin robin ice cream and cost rm60++, i would kill myself if i say i hate the cake) ....
all ended well with the arrival of the pizzas which obviously i ordered the wrong flavour.... regretted (=.=lll)
cake cake cake, i love my CAKE...... hahahahahahahahahaha
OVERALL, my birthday today was a blast, i was almost speechless about it that i could not write anything about it on this blog, but i set my mind straight and force myself to write, to make the memory last....
SPECIAL THANKS to audrey, kah yong, chen jiat which celebrated my wonderful birthday in the karaoke..... AND my MOM, FOR the wonderful cake and pizza.... family celebration....
SPECIAL THANKS to sin yuen and tze shuen(sisters), audrey, kah yong, CHEE HOW, and chen jiat for your wonderful presents......
and finally thanks to kevin jourdan, AUDREY, kah yong, chen jiat, krsh, chia eu jian, angie(cousin), hermaine su-ann, jeremy and jasmine(cousin), Veh hann, brian see, chee how(strange birthday wish 0.o), RAHUPATHI(in exam but did not forget me), mr.lai and mr.david (lecturers), wallace gan, wen jing, hui yen, my two sisters, may yen tham(cousin), abigail, sivagamy, yawaneshwary, priya darshini, and fatso wong(nanny's son), christina and myself............... for the wonderful birthday wishes
i am wee dissapointed with those idiots which did not even wish me or remember today is my birthday
1) most of the college people which as said i've organize most of their birthday and they din even rmb mine
2) those busmates which i even gave them PRESENTS and all i get back is NOTHINGNESS.... i think these humans are the worst among all types
3) some of my busy relatives and close friends.... couldn't blame them actually
like i said i poured out all hope, but i did not fail to enjoy today despite the wee dissapointment.
=D
Perhaps, today was meant to be a perfect day for me, klang was raining cats and dogs but somehow, i was in AEON all the time, without being able to see the downpour... lucky you said? i said it's destined. i truly believed today was perfected by someone of higher power up there for me... i did not see the rain fall, but somehow, the before and after weather of rain, soothing, cold, and most importantly beautiful.... the temperature is just nice like i would love the weather to be, the clouds synchronise in perfect curls like i would prefer it. and the lightings of the sky are just too beautiful itself.
however, it wasn't just the weather that has been perfected, but the journey of my birthday itself, the celebration went on like a crazy party although the people celebrating it with me wasn't as much.
here, if you read these, i would like to present my deepest appreciation towards the things you all have done today to clelebrate my entering of adulthood.
my friends celebrated this important event (to me) in greenbox karaoke at AEON.... it was nothing but pure awesome-ness and fun. we sang like celebrities, ignoring the keys we sang at, or the melody we followed, all was just too great and yet with only four people, the fun was never before. i guess what's important in determining happiness is not the crowd but the people inside the crowd, you don't need a thousand people to make your day, you just need one true friend to make it worthwhile. and this truly linked to the ADVISE my mom always told me "you don't need a thousand friends, you just need a BEST friend" one true friend whom you enjoy being with is comparable to a thousand people whom would hurt your feelings with words and actions.
the karaoke as said was superb! we sang from chinese songs to english songs and back to chinese songs....
and among all, my favourite was when we sang BAD ROMANCE when i ROCKED the stage! it was awesome especially when i've sung it in a karaoke centre, the second bomb for me was CLOSE TO YOU when audrey and i sung that song twice in a row in duet. the reason for that song was to tease kah yong and his __________ (fill in the blanks). it went completely awesome and quite memorable, having to high five with audrey constantly for every CREATIVE lyrics we made up while we sang in a flow.
i may not understand why kah yong said my voice is nice, when really i croaked along with the mike, nevertheless, i enjoyed him praising me for my singging unlike my sisters in which ON MY BIRTHDAY PRESENT WRITES "can you quit singging?" and which i immediatly answered her................... "NO!"
i sing to express my feelings, thus the song i listen too varies accordingly to my mood, so you can just judge me from the song i listen too, but its not all the time true.... be smart =)
love love love..... i want your LOVE......HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHA
after that, we went card choosing as audrey and i needed to buy greeting cards. the motive i held is that i would like to thank my mom for giving birth to me in this very same day 18 years ago. i gave her a membership card of her favourite coffee store, yes you got it.......... STARBUCKS CARD. where she could enjoy lotsa previleges and the rm20 value inside the card. Usually having a cool yet interesting expression, she seemed happy but not trilled to accept my gift (same when i bought her a cake during her birthday. but she reacted differently during valentines, how UNFAIR???). i could not help but jokingly tell her, "ei.... you not happy ar ?" then immediately she turned into our family clown and acted likeshe just won lottery.... thats my mom, funny, interesting, understanding, wise and friendly. it's no wonder her borthers always turn to her for comfort when they had trouble. maybe she is the angel, god sent to me. (GOSH, THAT MEANS I AM AN ANGEL'S SON *TROLL FACE*)
soon but not too late, i insist that my mom buy me a cake and pizza to celebrate. yes, you got it right, i insisted, and its kinda funny that the birthday boy/man is insisting that his family celebrates his birthday.... but, there is no need for shame or hidings in my family, everything is open. and thats how our family bonding is stronger than any family out there, I AM PROUD TO BE IN THIS FAMILY.
my sis actually got kinda jealous when her bithday earlier was celebrated without a cake and i had an ICE CREAM CAKE...... anyway, lets move on!
the cake was already melting when it arrived, we did not waste another single minute and started to set up the cake for a birthday song..... just as soon as the birthday song was over, i made my wish and we started DIGGING INTO THE CAKE with our spoon and knife...... no one bothered ensuring the melted ice cream did not flow onto the table, everyone just start digging for scoops of tasty, aromatic, icy ice cream. it was tasty (of course it is, what am i saying, its baskin robin ice cream and cost rm60++, i would kill myself if i say i hate the cake) ....
all ended well with the arrival of the pizzas which obviously i ordered the wrong flavour.... regretted (=.=lll)
OVERALL, my birthday today was a blast, i was almost speechless about it that i could not write anything about it on this blog, but i set my mind straight and force myself to write, to make the memory last....
SPECIAL THANKS to audrey, kah yong, chen jiat which celebrated my wonderful birthday in the karaoke..... AND my MOM, FOR the wonderful cake and pizza.... family celebration....
SPECIAL THANKS to sin yuen and tze shuen(sisters), audrey, kah yong, CHEE HOW, and chen jiat for your wonderful presents......
and finally thanks to kevin jourdan, AUDREY, kah yong, chen jiat, krsh, chia eu jian, angie(cousin), hermaine su-ann, jeremy and jasmine(cousin), Veh hann, brian see, chee how(strange birthday wish 0.o), RAHUPATHI(in exam but did not forget me), mr.lai and mr.david (lecturers), wallace gan, wen jing, hui yen, my two sisters, may yen tham(cousin), abigail, sivagamy, yawaneshwary, priya darshini, and fatso wong(nanny's son), christina and myself............... for the wonderful birthday wishes
i am wee dissapointed with those idiots which did not even wish me or remember today is my birthday
1) most of the college people which as said i've organize most of their birthday and they din even rmb mine
2) those busmates which i even gave them PRESENTS and all i get back is NOTHINGNESS.... i think these humans are the worst among all types
3) some of my busy relatives and close friends.... couldn't blame them actually
like i said i poured out all hope, but i did not fail to enjoy today despite the wee dissapointment.
to the FIRST TWO CATEGORIES OF CHEAPSKATES....... this is for you.....
=DWednesday, December 14, 2011
親情可嘉。。。
所謂血濃於水，家人是平時令你覺得討厭的一群人，但也是當你被討厭時，第一個為你擋風擋雨的人。你會問，為甚麼會有那麼笨的人呢？為了你連命都不要了嗎？
對！為了愛，再愚蠢的事他們也為你做，再大的險，他們也願意冒。為了不是甚麼利益，而是愛。他們就是這麼偉大，他們比起朋友當然來的重要，因為朋友可以傷害你，而家人是可以為了不讓你被傷害，而讓自己被害。
家人的愛是世界上無法取代地，它的愛比天還要高，比地還要深。
所以往往別人說跟自己的家人不親近，我真想送他們一巴！
帶壞你的朋友，卻是你們的癡心朋友，是兄弟，是好姐妹。。。
那為了你頂罪地兄弟，時常為了你站出來的姐妹們，又是算甚麼？
而為了一兩次的爭吵，就脫離血源關係嗎?
如果想騙你錢的一般女友，老婆，是愛你的人。。。
那麼，那為了你，懷胎十月的母親，給你勇氣，給你力量的母親又是甚麼？
如果，有一位稍微對你好的叔叔，因為買了一分禮物給你的叔叔，就當爸爸看待。。。
那。。。那為了你死憑了命賺錢，為了就是要讓你豐衣足食，讓你讀書的父親又是甚麼？
我們不能否認親情的偉大，因為它的愛無限。。。
可惡的是，有些人，就只因為聽了朋友的勸告，而大膽的跟父母反目成仇，也只是為了那一瞬間的榮耀，而讓父母傷心難過。為了顯出自我，而讓父母落淚。。。
評自己良心問問，這麼做，對嗎？
對我而言，家人比甚麼都來的重要，他們是我無價之寶，沒有誰是取代得了他們地。因為我永遠都不會再找到一個那麼知己的母親，可以陪我一起罵那低級動物"死猴子" 的人。永遠都找不到一群那麼有趣，天真，搞笑的妹妹團，使我每一天的生活都活得那麼精彩。永遠也找不到，一個重來不打我的爸爸，一個為了滿足我，自己寧可受苦，挨餓的爸爸。
這些，不是甚麼豬朋狗友能取代地，而真正的朋友是不會想在你心目中取代您和家人的親情地。
你們這些廢物，我希望你們快點看清，甚麼叫親情可嘉。。。
不要讓自己來不及示愛，不要讓自己後悔當初。。。
過去的時間是無法彌補的，珍惜你身邊的家人，因為沒有他們，就不會有今天那麼幸福的你。may this be your wake up call...
對！為了愛，再愚蠢的事他們也為你做，再大的險，他們也願意冒。為了不是甚麼利益，而是愛。他們就是這麼偉大，他們比起朋友當然來的重要，因為朋友可以傷害你，而家人是可以為了不讓你被傷害，而讓自己被害。
家人的愛是世界上無法取代地，它的愛比天還要高，比地還要深。
所以往往別人說跟自己的家人不親近，我真想送他們一巴！
帶壞你的朋友，卻是你們的癡心朋友，是兄弟，是好姐妹。。。
那為了你頂罪地兄弟，時常為了你站出來的姐妹們，又是算甚麼？
而為了一兩次的爭吵，就脫離血源關係嗎?
如果想騙你錢的一般女友，老婆，是愛你的人。。。
那麼，那為了你，懷胎十月的母親，給你勇氣，給你力量的母親又是甚麼？
如果，有一位稍微對你好的叔叔，因為買了一分禮物給你的叔叔，就當爸爸看待。。。
那。。。那為了你死憑了命賺錢，為了就是要讓你豐衣足食，讓你讀書的父親又是甚麼？
我們不能否認親情的偉大，因為它的愛無限。。。
可惡的是，有些人，就只因為聽了朋友的勸告，而大膽的跟父母反目成仇，也只是為了那一瞬間的榮耀，而讓父母傷心難過。為了顯出自我，而讓父母落淚。。。
評自己良心問問，這麼做，對嗎？
對我而言，家人比甚麼都來的重要，他們是我無價之寶，沒有誰是取代得了他們地。因為我永遠都不會再找到一個那麼知己的母親，可以陪我一起罵那低級動物"死猴子" 的人。永遠都找不到一群那麼有趣，天真，搞笑的妹妹團，使我每一天的生活都活得那麼精彩。永遠也找不到，一個重來不打我的爸爸，一個為了滿足我，自己寧可受苦，挨餓的爸爸。
這些，不是甚麼豬朋狗友能取代地，而真正的朋友是不會想在你心目中取代您和家人的親情地。
你們這些廢物，我希望你們快點看清，甚麼叫親情可嘉。。。
不要讓自己來不及示愛，不要讓自己後悔當初。。。
過去的時間是無法彌補的，珍惜你身邊的家人，因為沒有他們，就不會有今天那麼幸福的你。may this be your wake up call...
得不到的。。。"新服"
逛了半天的shopping,才發現原來跟朋友一起去逛街不比跟家人一起逛街悶。如姐姐的Audrey.... 大概整個下午都在幫我看衣服，一路看了，就一路試衣服。所以比起來，我們是走的比較慢，因為我的夥伴不是一塊木頭。
可以說，我試的沒一件，我都向帶回家，可是現金有限，所以只好選了幾件喜歡的。可是事情不是這麼容易就能解決的，在metrojaya 試了好幾件才發現它們都好貴哦。結果沒辦法，買了一件，其他的拍照下來，再帶父母去購物。
去了metrojaya之後，在padini, romp, bershka, 又看到自己超愛的衣服，可是有些卻很貴，所以也不妄想了，而在padini的衣服卻能帶父母到aeon購買。
我就是一個熱愛衣服，瘋狂購物的男孩。我一旦購物起來，很難停下來，但因為今天花的是自己節省存下來的零用錢，所以皮包對我開始罵髒話，逼不得已停了下來，很明顯的，購物完了之後，我有這一張不滿意的表情。因為我還沒買夠。。。。 你們這些貴到半命的衣服，你們等著瞧。。。我是不會那麼輕易的放過你們地！！！！！！！！
得不到的新服。。。就如得不到的幸福。。。嗨
可以說，我試的沒一件，我都向帶回家，可是現金有限，所以只好選了幾件喜歡的。可是事情不是這麼容易就能解決的，在metrojaya 試了好幾件才發現它們都好貴哦。結果沒辦法，買了一件，其他的拍照下來，再帶父母去購物。
去了metrojaya之後，在padini, romp, bershka, 又看到自己超愛的衣服，可是有些卻很貴，所以也不妄想了，而在padini的衣服卻能帶父母到aeon購買。
我就是一個熱愛衣服，瘋狂購物的男孩。我一旦購物起來，很難停下來，但因為今天花的是自己節省存下來的零用錢，所以皮包對我開始罵髒話，逼不得已停了下來，很明顯的，購物完了之後，我有這一張不滿意的表情。因為我還沒買夠。。。。 你們這些貴到半命的衣服，你們等著瞧。。。我是不會那麼輕易的放過你們地！！！！！！！！
得不到的新服。。。就如得不到的幸福。。。嗨
Tuesday, December 13, 2011
人與人之間。。。
做朋友而已，其實並不需要複雜化。可是有些人總愛在朋友的脖子上戴上一個標號。
友誼之間不是不分你我，互相照顧與理解彼此的嗎？但現代人，或者某些特別的怪咖總愛在生活裡，把朋友分得清清楚楚。
他們會選朋友要好，對他有利的，就當癡心朋友，比較沒有利益的，就把他們給散得遠遠。
這些，就是我憎恨的一群低級怪咖。
是人的話，不就應該要有人類的人性嗎？但有些動物就是缺少這方面的性格。
我很相信因果，所以我也不會去人生攻擊或惡意對待其他人，就選有，也不會在他們面前或跟別人在他們背後，人生攻擊。
這不叫脆弱或沒膽量，而是有人性。做人，就應該有人性，就應該懂得珍惜人與人之間的相處，不是互相利用，惡待他人。
你這樣對我，你總有一天同樣地也會被其他人這樣惡待。。。你小心一點！
平時不做虧心事，半夜敲門也不驚。。。
若要人不知，除非己莫為。。。
這兩句話，就送給你們這些愛選朋友的低級，沒品，自私，自以為是的怪咖！！！
我的人生充滿＂沒安全感"就是有著這些超級低級母狗。go to hell, you bitches!!!
友誼之間不是不分你我，互相照顧與理解彼此的嗎？但現代人，或者某些特別的怪咖總愛在生活裡，把朋友分得清清楚楚。
他們會選朋友要好，對他有利的，就當癡心朋友，比較沒有利益的，就把他們給散得遠遠。
這些，就是我憎恨的一群低級怪咖。
是人的話，不就應該要有人類的人性嗎？但有些動物就是缺少這方面的性格。
我很相信因果，所以我也不會去人生攻擊或惡意對待其他人，就選有，也不會在他們面前或跟別人在他們背後，人生攻擊。
這不叫脆弱或沒膽量，而是有人性。做人，就應該有人性，就應該懂得珍惜人與人之間的相處，不是互相利用，惡待他人。
你這樣對我，你總有一天同樣地也會被其他人這樣惡待。。。你小心一點！
平時不做虧心事，半夜敲門也不驚。。。
若要人不知，除非己莫為。。。
這兩句話，就送給你們這些愛選朋友的低級，沒品，自私，自以為是的怪咖！！！
我的人生充滿＂沒安全感"就是有著這些超級低級母狗。go to hell, you bitches!!!
我沒騙你們喔。。。這就是我一直以來說的那傢伙。注意藍色衣服的妖精。
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Monday, December 12, 2011
為甚麼要改變？做自己有錯嗎？
我有一位同班同學曾經對我說過。。。
"有甚麼感覺就顯出來啦，我們有不是他們的誰誰誰，為甚麼就要為了他們隱藏自己的表情呢？想說甚麼就直接說啊！"
而這位朋友的一翻語，如今還牢牢的刻在我心里。
她是個女生，雖然這分友誼已經不像以前那麼要好了，但我還是把她奉為我的同歲偶像，就因為她說了那翻話。
做人是需要照顧別人的感受，避免得罪他人，但有時候，太過與在以別人的感受而往往忽略了自己的存在，就如自殺的行為。
她說的那些話，不完全對，也不完全錯。。。但她的那股勇氣，是令我對他刮目相看，她有很多朋友，也有她那一般癡心的好姐妹團。就因為有她顯露的那一目最真誠的自己，讓所有的人都喜歡她。。。 不虧把他當朋友！謝謝你。
如果神創造這樣的我們，為甚麼我們身為他的信徒，卻要改變他的設計呢？
問自己。。。你懷疑神的決定嗎？
"有甚麼感覺就顯出來啦，我們有不是他們的誰誰誰，為甚麼就要為了他們隱藏自己的表情呢？想說甚麼就直接說啊！"
而這位朋友的一翻語，如今還牢牢的刻在我心里。
她是個女生，雖然這分友誼已經不像以前那麼要好了，但我還是把她奉為我的同歲偶像，就因為她說了那翻話。
做人是需要照顧別人的感受，避免得罪他人，但有時候，太過與在以別人的感受而往往忽略了自己的存在，就如自殺的行為。
她說的那些話，不完全對，也不完全錯。。。但她的那股勇氣，是令我對他刮目相看，她有很多朋友，也有她那一般癡心的好姐妹團。就因為有她顯露的那一目最真誠的自己，讓所有的人都喜歡她。。。 不虧把他當朋友！謝謝你。
如果神創造這樣的我們，為甚麼我們身為他的信徒，卻要改變他的設計呢？
問自己。。。你懷疑神的決定嗎？
對不起，我失控了。。。
我發狂了，我又發狂了，我又無端端的發瘋了。
我失控了，我不知道為甚麼，只知道我的情緒不穩定，又有一股氣息想從我心里從出來。
我很生氣，大概是因為事情又脫落我的掌控裡了，平常對生命有掌控的我，不習慣失控。
現在，凌晨三點的我不想睡，卻覺得很累。
我失控了，我不知道為甚麼，只知道我的情緒不穩定，又有一股氣息想從我心里從出來。
我很生氣，大概是因為事情又脫落我的掌控裡了，平常對生命有掌控的我，不習慣失控。
現在，凌晨三點的我不想睡，卻覺得很累。
Sunday, December 11, 2011
Too much things, so little time.....
I remember how I used to hate holidays now.
How everyone would crave for holiday to come by are all so naive. They are enjoyable at first till the real dilemma comes by.
Life are no bed of chocolate, they never are. Thus for those of you put there who think they are, life might just turn out to be a bed of cockroaches for you. Beware...
I have so much things to do, and yet recently my club is driving me crazy when everyone is pushing things to me again, I could not help but to do it alone..... I have the responsibility even if those idiots refuse to wokrk as a team.... If any of them read this, I wanna tell you..... YOU ARE NOT THE ONLY PERSON WITH PROBLEMS, I HAVE MY LIFE TO HANDLE TOO, AND I AM DOING YOUR JOB COMPLETING YOUR OLIGATION..... DUN PROMISE PEOPLE WHEN YOU CAN'T KEEP THE PROMISE, DUN ENTER THE COMMITTEE BOARD WHEN YOU ARE NOT A RESPONSIBLE PERSON. IF YOU GET THIS, MIGHT JUST AS WELL GET THIS TOO..... YOU ARE A PIECE OF SHIT!!!!
I Have so much to do, till my own life have been completely ignored, my health, my CNY clothe shopping, my relationship with friends.... Haiz.....
Talking bout CNY cloth shopping is another trouble, my mom expect me to shop with my friends yet they aren't available most of the time. I could not blame them of course, it's not their fault obviously. But I really wish things could change from here. But nevertheless, shopping with my mom is also just as nice.... Haha
Btw, my one and only crazy thing I wanted to do is to watch the meteor rain, and so far, the rooftop of general hospital is the best place, I guess it really sucks when your best friends are not agreeing with you for the impulsiveness for just one time.... I know it's really something very "pantang" but perhaps to me and maybe me ONLY,HAHA, craziness is something not limited by any sort of religious belief nor logic or even common sense,hahahahahahahahaha. I guess it's not anyone's fault as crazy is also defined to be something you have to do it alone.... Hahahaha.... Well if nobody is onto it, I will go there all by myself. hahaha, kah yong if you read this, it's ok, I will go watch the stars myself.... Lol.
Bout my birthday, it's been since standard five I have not really celebrated it, I guess it's because the sad happening that happened in my childhood during birthday that I refuse to use anymore cakes for my birthday. But finally, I decided that this year, I am going to have cake for the very first time since Std. Five. This is a big leap, every time when it reaches my birthday, I would expect people to call me and just simply wish me, but it turns out that all I ever get is disappointment, and I even gave up thinking about my birthday anymore cuz if people can't even remember your birthday, why should I treat it as an important day? BUT NOT THIS YEAR!!!! I am telling everyone that my birthday is looming nearer cuz I wish the people I've told to, would remember my existence, that they would know I am bearing hope this year..... After all I am breaking into ADULTHOOD, this birthday whether or not people remember should mean something to myself, even if there is no one to celebrate with, I will celebrate it myself, buy my own cake and blow it myself. Hahahahahahahahahahahahahaha..... All I need is a Smile in my birthday celebration. That's it!
And if you read this, I wanna tell you, if I know you, I remember your birthday, unless you are my college classmate(I choose to forget them), which dun even know I existed, so I treated them the same....
It's really disappointing that I myself ORGANIZED SO MANY BIRTHDAY PARTIES FOR MY COLLEGE CLASSMATES, and in return, they dun even remember my birthday.
How everyone would crave for holiday to come by are all so naive. They are enjoyable at first till the real dilemma comes by.
Life are no bed of chocolate, they never are. Thus for those of you put there who think they are, life might just turn out to be a bed of cockroaches for you. Beware...
I have so much things to do, and yet recently my club is driving me crazy when everyone is pushing things to me again, I could not help but to do it alone..... I have the responsibility even if those idiots refuse to wokrk as a team.... If any of them read this, I wanna tell you..... YOU ARE NOT THE ONLY PERSON WITH PROBLEMS, I HAVE MY LIFE TO HANDLE TOO, AND I AM DOING YOUR JOB COMPLETING YOUR OLIGATION..... DUN PROMISE PEOPLE WHEN YOU CAN'T KEEP THE PROMISE, DUN ENTER THE COMMITTEE BOARD WHEN YOU ARE NOT A RESPONSIBLE PERSON. IF YOU GET THIS, MIGHT JUST AS WELL GET THIS TOO..... YOU ARE A PIECE OF SHIT!!!!
I Have so much to do, till my own life have been completely ignored, my health, my CNY clothe shopping, my relationship with friends.... Haiz.....
Talking bout CNY cloth shopping is another trouble, my mom expect me to shop with my friends yet they aren't available most of the time. I could not blame them of course, it's not their fault obviously. But I really wish things could change from here. But nevertheless, shopping with my mom is also just as nice.... Haha
Btw, my one and only crazy thing I wanted to do is to watch the meteor rain, and so far, the rooftop of general hospital is the best place, I guess it really sucks when your best friends are not agreeing with you for the impulsiveness for just one time.... I know it's really something very "pantang" but perhaps to me and maybe me ONLY,HAHA, craziness is something not limited by any sort of religious belief nor logic or even common sense,hahahahahahahahaha. I guess it's not anyone's fault as crazy is also defined to be something you have to do it alone.... Hahahaha.... Well if nobody is onto it, I will go there all by myself. hahaha, kah yong if you read this, it's ok, I will go watch the stars myself.... Lol.
Bout my birthday, it's been since standard five I have not really celebrated it, I guess it's because the sad happening that happened in my childhood during birthday that I refuse to use anymore cakes for my birthday. But finally, I decided that this year, I am going to have cake for the very first time since Std. Five. This is a big leap, every time when it reaches my birthday, I would expect people to call me and just simply wish me, but it turns out that all I ever get is disappointment, and I even gave up thinking about my birthday anymore cuz if people can't even remember your birthday, why should I treat it as an important day? BUT NOT THIS YEAR!!!! I am telling everyone that my birthday is looming nearer cuz I wish the people I've told to, would remember my existence, that they would know I am bearing hope this year..... After all I am breaking into ADULTHOOD, this birthday whether or not people remember should mean something to myself, even if there is no one to celebrate with, I will celebrate it myself, buy my own cake and blow it myself. Hahahahahahahahahahahahahaha..... All I need is a Smile in my birthday celebration. That's it!
And if you read this, I wanna tell you, if I know you, I remember your birthday, unless you are my college classmate(I choose to forget them), which dun even know I existed, so I treated them the same....
It's really disappointing that I myself ORGANIZED SO MANY BIRTHDAY PARTIES FOR MY COLLEGE CLASSMATES, and in return, they dun even remember my birthday.
無名小島上的幸福快樂。。。
我活在一個無名的小島上，一個世外桃源的小島，小島上只有我一人。
小島的邊遠有一座很高的圍牆，把小島的世界封閉了起來。
小島上的我，旺不出去，也沒有人能發覺小島的存在。
有時候，把自己給封閉起來未免是一件好事，但往往也只有這些方法才能使自己受到保護，我見過朋友如何崩虧，如何重新爬了起來，卻讓自己跌得更慘。而我也不例外。
把自己的無名小島關起來，隱藏起來，才能讓一個美麗的世界，真正的受到保護。
不把心打開，不就沒有人能闖進了，不是嗎？
這些都是我的人生教我的。這些教訓，真是來的不輕啊。。。
小島的邊遠有一座很高的圍牆，把小島的世界封閉了起來。
小島上的我，旺不出去，也沒有人能發覺小島的存在。
有時候，把自己給封閉起來未免是一件好事，但往往也只有這些方法才能使自己受到保護，我見過朋友如何崩虧，如何重新爬了起來，卻讓自己跌得更慘。而我也不例外。
把自己的無名小島關起來，隱藏起來，才能讓一個美麗的世界，真正的受到保護。
不把心打開，不就沒有人能闖進了，不是嗎？
這些都是我的人生教我的。這些教訓，真是來的不輕啊。。。
Saturday, December 10, 2011
日不落的痛。。。。
昨日是我今年最後的校日，也是我生平中最難過的一日，就連原因是甚麼我也不清楚。心裡充滿著埋怨，傷痛，嫉妒和思念。為了甚麼？我也很想知道。。。就只知道，心裡憋著一股很重的負能量，仿佛就像一條解不開的繩子困繞著心臟，越綁越緊。
全班戴上了聖誕帽，我們班在大學中很顯出，很特別，但可能也是這個特別的慶法，讓我覺得額外的分外。跟我班上的同學有絞結也不是我剛發現的事實，可是今天的界限卻畫得比平時還要清楚。
今日卻因為朋友不要載我去一場concert，搞得我不能去看朋友的演出，其是我很埋怨他是這樣的人。他平時很會當司機，熱愛駕車，他可以對誰都好就除了我。他可以等到別人開口馬他，他才會想到我，事後還要我跟別人解釋，就彷彿叫我不要跟別人投訴。他就是一個這樣的人，很會選朋友。
可是想想，他根本沒有理由一定要栽我去，要載的話，是人之常情，不載的話，也很合理。求幫忙的人是我，我根本沒有資格埋怨。
這世間有各種各樣的人，有些低級到要命，有些很自私。但我覺得，管好自己就好，別人是怎樣的人，由不到我們去管。他們的品格再差也不代表我們應該去恨他們，用心機去應付他們，這樣的話，我們不是也跟他們一樣嗎？
全班戴上了聖誕帽，我們班在大學中很顯出，很特別，但可能也是這個特別的慶法，讓我覺得額外的分外。跟我班上的同學有絞結也不是我剛發現的事實，可是今天的界限卻畫得比平時還要清楚。
今日卻因為朋友不要載我去一場concert，搞得我不能去看朋友的演出，其是我很埋怨他是這樣的人。他平時很會當司機，熱愛駕車，他可以對誰都好就除了我。他可以等到別人開口馬他，他才會想到我，事後還要我跟別人解釋，就彷彿叫我不要跟別人投訴。他就是一個這樣的人，很會選朋友。
可是想想，他根本沒有理由一定要栽我去，要載的話，是人之常情，不載的話，也很合理。求幫忙的人是我，我根本沒有資格埋怨。
這世間有各種各樣的人，有些低級到要命，有些很自私。但我覺得，管好自己就好，別人是怎樣的人，由不到我們去管。他們的品格再差也不代表我們應該去恨他們，用心機去應付他們，這樣的話，我們不是也跟他們一樣嗎？
Facebook 不是你們的遊樂場！
有些人比無聊還要無聊，不是在說那只母狗，但有些人實在讓我忍無可忍。他利用facebook來自造一個新的戶口，然後放上一位曾經跟我有勾結的人的名字。當時還以為那個人已經放下怨恨，因為他想加入我facebook的好友，沒想到只是個惡作劇。
面子書是一個可以讓人們勾通，交友，及娛樂的網站。可是有些人就是愛利用面子書來惡作劇，取笑別人，侵犯隱私。
我也只能跟你們說。。。"十八歲了，成熟一點吧" (￣◇￣;)
面子書是一個可以讓人們勾通，交友，及娛樂的網站。可是有些人就是愛利用面子書來惡作劇，取笑別人，侵犯隱私。
我也只能跟你們說。。。"十八歲了，成熟一點吧" (￣◇￣;)
賤人。
雖然已經有點悶了，可是我還是不想讓那些不自量力的低級動物逍遙法外，就從朋友聚會那天說起，那天本應該也是要慶祝另一為朋友的生日的。他約了所有的人在6點見面，平時不遲到的我很早就到了，生日仔也到了，也有另一位好友，總供3人準時到達，卻另外四人遲了足足1小時15分鐘！！！ 你們憑甚麼要我們等你們啊？你們是大人物嗎？
其中的兩位可原諒因為他們，一個需要拜神，另一個是從subang jaya趕下來的。但那只母狗和他的跟尾狗就不能放過，說甚麼有原因遲到，還不是跑去打羽毛球！ 這不是不小心遲到，而根本就是故意的，他把他自己當成是甚麼大牌人物，還自起身價。不要臉的人就是如此下等，如次低級。這還不選哦，他還告訴別人他7點才要到，問起他是否有這會事，還睜眼說瞎話，說沒這會事，我們也只能閉一子眼收聲了避免尷尬的場面，這已經很明顯他是故意遲到地。來了之後不道歉也就選了，還放他的狗話，亂罵人。他說是他的夥伴加汽車油，加得太久。白癡的也知道加油罷了不需要一小時吧。。。他也似乎忘了解釋他去他羽毛球的事實，還當成甚麼也沒發生過，但他在facebook里已經出賣了自己，因為他post上自己的所在，那就是那羽毛球場，這就是所謂的睜眼說瞎話。。。
過後還很不要臉的叫了一個整整白多塊的食物，因為是那生日仔要請客地。而其他的只幹叫便宜一些的食物，因為我們知道生日仔的現金有限。整個聚會中，也只有他說最多話，簡直把自己當成是主角，低級吧？就連認識與瞭解他的人也不喜歡跟他坐在一起了，笨的就會一直當他的跟尾狗，聽他的狗話而覺得有趣。這還不只喔。。。在聚會中，還纏著他隔壁的一些男生朋友，摟摟抱抱的，看了也想吐！別人看起來像是他在開玩笑，可是開玩笑也不需要一直抱著別人的手臂吧？
然後他還在班上的默個活動上，做了很多很娘的pose. 有興趣的話，去看吧。。。http://flyingsparksanddreams.blogspot.com/2011/12/rock-my-world-into-sunlight.html
其中的兩位可原諒因為他們，一個需要拜神，另一個是從subang jaya趕下來的。但那只母狗和他的跟尾狗就不能放過，說甚麼有原因遲到，還不是跑去打羽毛球！ 這不是不小心遲到，而根本就是故意的，他把他自己當成是甚麼大牌人物，還自起身價。不要臉的人就是如此下等，如次低級。這還不選哦，他還告訴別人他7點才要到，問起他是否有這會事，還睜眼說瞎話，說沒這會事，我們也只能閉一子眼收聲了避免尷尬的場面，這已經很明顯他是故意遲到地。來了之後不道歉也就選了，還放他的狗話，亂罵人。他說是他的夥伴加汽車油，加得太久。白癡的也知道加油罷了不需要一小時吧。。。他也似乎忘了解釋他去他羽毛球的事實，還當成甚麼也沒發生過，但他在facebook里已經出賣了自己，因為他post上自己的所在，那就是那羽毛球場，這就是所謂的睜眼說瞎話。。。
過後還很不要臉的叫了一個整整白多塊的食物，因為是那生日仔要請客地。而其他的只幹叫便宜一些的食物，因為我們知道生日仔的現金有限。整個聚會中，也只有他說最多話，簡直把自己當成是主角，低級吧？就連認識與瞭解他的人也不喜歡跟他坐在一起了，笨的就會一直當他的跟尾狗，聽他的狗話而覺得有趣。這還不只喔。。。在聚會中，還纏著他隔壁的一些男生朋友，摟摟抱抱的，看了也想吐！別人看起來像是他在開玩笑，可是開玩笑也不需要一直抱著別人的手臂吧？
然後他還在班上的默個活動上，做了很多很娘的pose. 有興趣的話，去看吧。。。http://flyingsparksanddreams.blogspot.com/2011/12/rock-my-world-into-sunlight.html
Friday, December 9, 2011
i'm scared....
i have been encountering lots of dilemmas, worries and anxiety today, just after a dreadful day in college having to feel completely separated.... the moment i reached home, i had an immediate rush in thoughts of all the things i had to manage during the holidays, yes, i am now in a holiday period. and it ain't what i wanted...
i rmb those days in high scholl where we do not need to worry about anything, and now we have to worry about everything. i did not intend to scare anyone but it is true that college is the most awful period in a person's life especially when you aren't wishing to just study locally.
i need a game plan, i am completely out of track now, thus explaining this post, in which is the usage of internet, a form of entertainment to escape reality.... although writing, composing are suppose to be something positive, but as for now, the intention is bad, that is, to escape reality... someone help me....
i rmb those days in high scholl where we do not need to worry about anything, and now we have to worry about everything. i did not intend to scare anyone but it is true that college is the most awful period in a person's life especially when you aren't wishing to just study locally.
i need a game plan, i am completely out of track now, thus explaining this post, in which is the usage of internet, a form of entertainment to escape reality.... although writing, composing are suppose to be something positive, but as for now, the intention is bad, that is, to escape reality... someone help me....
世間人類無形。。。
世間人類無形，無影，無心，
人類的懦弱，友誼的輕薄，
仿佛就像不存在的永恆，
情感的去留，似乎沒有停留，
人類的惡性，變成無形的戰爭，
失去的友情，親情，愛情，就如轻弱的雲朵，
來去不定，随意扩散，
人生原来並不简单。
人類的懦弱，友誼的輕薄，
仿佛就像不存在的永恆，
情感的去留，似乎沒有停留，
人類的惡性，變成無形的戰爭，
失去的友情，親情，愛情，就如轻弱的雲朵，
來去不定，随意扩散，
人生原来並不简单。
Wednesday, December 7, 2011
我不自量力的第二個華語post (這是我無聊，三八及沒有眉毛的妹妹提議的。。。）
主題其實跟上一次的post有關。。。
就是要說那低級動物的醜事。。。
不是說到那低級動物要去問號碼嗎？很明顯的結果就是他根本沒有那個勇氣去靠近那女的，還想跟人開口拿號碼？
看到別人的時候還全身發抖，臉部發紅，還啞巴。。。 所以說這些哈巴狗，只有一張嘴，甚麼都沒有了。
失敗了還不夠，還在全班面前再嗆多一次，說甚麼今天一定會跟她討的，結果還不是一樣。。。
這些人就是超級無聊加愚蠢，有著一張嘴卻沒实际的行動。
今天更糟。。。大該全班都在看著他的好戲，大約三點鐘左右，那女的就從樓上下來了。那隻低級哈巴狗不但沒跟上去，還在左右兩旁問人家該如何做，就坐在他後面的我突然狂笑，大家也隨意地笑了起來。這是報應嗎？我覺得是。
取笑別人的下場就是終究會被取笑，被別人當笑話看，這就是報應。
這還不夠哦，人走了之後，他途然追上去，原本還意為他鼓起勇氣來，結果。。。。。。。。
大家跑到外面時，看見的只是那女生上車走了，而他卻回頭的說。。。。 "你們不是要去玩網站遊戲嗎？"
我忍不住又開始有狂笑了起來，低級人物就是低級人物，所谓成事不足，敗事有餘就是這意思。
我還真的要好好謝"它" 這隻怪東西讓我今天笑到飽。
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今天的故事還沒告一段落哦，有興趣的話，就請接著讀下去吧！
這雙性戀的變態哈巴追完女生，還想搞男。。。
就跟我朋友秀了一下他說為的"肌肉"，根本就是變態加自戀的低級色魔。
說甚麼有線條，我朋友拉開他的袖子時，看見的只有肥猪肉。他不但死不承認自己胖了，還說自己有一段時間沒練过，所以肌肉鬆脫了。 你們自己評評理吧。。。
接著就是他很高興的說了自己是怎麼愛保養臉部的，每天花了整整幾小時的時間化妝與保養，被全班笑他了還不要緊，還應要拖另外一個女同學下水。真是無藥可救的白癡！
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我說他是gay，一點也沒錯，以下就是理由。。。
1）他不但瞄了一位男同學的下體（因為當時那位男同學是躺著的），還高興的跟他說"唯，看到你下面那個了，還不快一點起來" 我自己聽見了也快要吐出來！為甚麼全班同學都沒注意到的東西，偏偏給這位變態老看到呢？
2）之前說的，他很愛說另一位男同學的下部有多大，到今日，他還在提起，還更那位男的比起大小來。不懂的人，還以為他是那些愛開玩笑的人，看的一清二楚的人，就會知道他根本就是一個同性戀。
3）他还告片全天下，说什么要上什么色网的，恶性死了。
這也不是一兩次的事情了，他也似乎很愛全班開玩笑說他是gay的笑話。也跟幾位朋友來的很近，是沒有被他們懷疑，可是也該有分寸吧？ 如我所說的，一兩次就是開玩笑，每天都開這種，貼男人的笑話就不是笑話了，是趁機得成。
我也是第一次寫這麼多，有錯字要多多包含，畢竟我也是剛開始用華語寫部落格罷了。
就到此為止吧，下次有料爆給您們聽的話，一定第一時間寫上部落格。
就是要說那低級動物的醜事。。。
不是說到那低級動物要去問號碼嗎？很明顯的結果就是他根本沒有那個勇氣去靠近那女的，還想跟人開口拿號碼？
看到別人的時候還全身發抖，臉部發紅，還啞巴。。。 所以說這些哈巴狗，只有一張嘴，甚麼都沒有了。
失敗了還不夠，還在全班面前再嗆多一次，說甚麼今天一定會跟她討的，結果還不是一樣。。。
這些人就是超級無聊加愚蠢，有著一張嘴卻沒实际的行動。
今天更糟。。。大該全班都在看著他的好戲，大約三點鐘左右，那女的就從樓上下來了。那隻低級哈巴狗不但沒跟上去，還在左右兩旁問人家該如何做，就坐在他後面的我突然狂笑，大家也隨意地笑了起來。這是報應嗎？我覺得是。
取笑別人的下場就是終究會被取笑，被別人當笑話看，這就是報應。
這還不夠哦，人走了之後，他途然追上去，原本還意為他鼓起勇氣來，結果。。。。。。。。
大家跑到外面時，看見的只是那女生上車走了，而他卻回頭的說。。。。 "你們不是要去玩網站遊戲嗎？"
我忍不住又開始有狂笑了起來，低級人物就是低級人物，所谓成事不足，敗事有餘就是這意思。
我還真的要好好謝"它" 這隻怪東西讓我今天笑到飽。
。
。
。
今天的故事還沒告一段落哦，有興趣的話，就請接著讀下去吧！
這雙性戀的變態哈巴追完女生，還想搞男。。。
就跟我朋友秀了一下他說為的"肌肉"，根本就是變態加自戀的低級色魔。
說甚麼有線條，我朋友拉開他的袖子時，看見的只有肥猪肉。他不但死不承認自己胖了，還說自己有一段時間沒練过，所以肌肉鬆脫了。 你們自己評評理吧。。。
接著就是他很高興的說了自己是怎麼愛保養臉部的，每天花了整整幾小時的時間化妝與保養，被全班笑他了還不要緊，還應要拖另外一個女同學下水。真是無藥可救的白癡！
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我說他是gay，一點也沒錯，以下就是理由。。。
1）他不但瞄了一位男同學的下體（因為當時那位男同學是躺著的），還高興的跟他說"唯，看到你下面那個了，還不快一點起來" 我自己聽見了也快要吐出來！為甚麼全班同學都沒注意到的東西，偏偏給這位變態老看到呢？
2）之前說的，他很愛說另一位男同學的下部有多大，到今日，他還在提起，還更那位男的比起大小來。不懂的人，還以為他是那些愛開玩笑的人，看的一清二楚的人，就會知道他根本就是一個同性戀。
3）他还告片全天下，说什么要上什么色网的，恶性死了。
這也不是一兩次的事情了，他也似乎很愛全班開玩笑說他是gay的笑話。也跟幾位朋友來的很近，是沒有被他們懷疑，可是也該有分寸吧？ 如我所說的，一兩次就是開玩笑，每天都開這種，貼男人的笑話就不是笑話了，是趁機得成。
我也是第一次寫這麼多，有錯字要多多包含，畢竟我也是剛開始用華語寫部落格罷了。
就到此為止吧，下次有料爆給您們聽的話，一定第一時間寫上部落格。
Monday, December 5, 2011
人。。。。
原來想跟女生討號碼也需要公布天下，需不需要幫你做宣傳，拍廣告，也順便登上報章？
送你two words....... 無聊！
我也發現原來＂他＂對男生下體也感到興趣，剛剛就聽他如何在全班面前如何地誇贊一位同班同學的下體有多大，還高興地向大家宣佈自己是同性戀。
一兩次還能說是開玩笑，但每天都開這種玩笑，就是一種暗示了。。。不對嗎？
就讓你來評評理。。。
渴望別人的注意也許要有限，不是把一個禮拜前，甚至是幾個月前或年頭，自己做的蠢事每天重復一兩次讓大家對著你笑。 真是不懂這些低級動物的腦袋是怎麼想地。。。
送你two words....... 無聊！
我也發現原來＂他＂對男生下體也感到興趣，剛剛就聽他如何在全班面前如何地誇贊一位同班同學的下體有多大，還高興地向大家宣佈自己是同性戀。
一兩次還能說是開玩笑，但每天都開這種玩笑，就是一種暗示了。。。不對嗎？
就讓你來評評理。。。
渴望別人的注意也許要有限，不是把一個禮拜前，甚至是幾個月前或年頭，自己做的蠢事每天重復一兩次讓大家對著你笑。 真是不懂這些低級動物的腦袋是怎麼想地。。。
Thursday, October 20, 2011
Mental labels.... neccessary?
from what i have realised from this awesome book (Oprah thinks so too), many people in this generation are putting so much mental labels on themselves. and what do i mean by "mental labels" ?
i dentifications of course.
whatever you possess, does not define your true self.
Being the CEO in a big company does not make who you are,
Discovery of a new substance, new physics law, or any achievements does not sum up to who you are,
whether you are rich or poor, does it really matter?
does whatever talent you have make you who you are?
if Peter is smart, does it mean being smart is Peter?
or in a way you geeks may understand like i would....
ENGLISH: peter is rich, but rich is not peter
MATH: peter=handsome but handsome =/= peter
PHYSICS: you can derive a formula from p=F/A but you can't derive from anything else to give that formula
BIO: parent cell gives daughter cell, daughter cell can't smply combine to give parent cell
CHEMISTRY: Mg + 2HCl ----> H2 + MgCl2, the reaction is irreversible.
We are the initials of everything, we make achivements, money, friendship, and every other identities, but identites can't sum up to who we are.
When we are born, we are not given any identities, it's what we made up in life that gave us so many identities, that made our simple life, confusing.
and of course, to disentagle from identities, we simply have to see the true image in us.
i used to hear this line from someone,
THE PERSON: can we just go to your house instead?
ME: no, let's just stick to going to your house
THE PERSON: dun wan la.
ME: why? but your house is so big... (jokingly)
THE PERSON: i know rite...
is the house somehow making up who this person is? the person thinks that by possessing the house, the person becomes superior, and that made that person proud, full of identites, and able to gain attention, but deep inside, the house did not represent the person, but only his ego or i would call arrogance.
so what if you have talents in acting, singging, dancing, playing piano, mastering many languages, intelligent, rich, handsome, pretty or perfect?
its only when at the brink of life, that people tend to realise, that these are just merely identifications,
in an anology: these are the play of a sketch, they show out the character, but they can never substitute the character.
deep inside, we are ourself, we are our LIFE, and we are not define by what we achieved or what we possesses. be confused about who you truly are, cuz then only you will realise the actor in you, not the act.
do not become a person i know of that this person is so defined by what he/she possesses (nothing much of course but a lot of self fiction story and exaggeration to create a false identity)
so deeply unconcious that he/she tend to be using "I", "ME", "MYSELF","MINE" very much frequently.
and he/she would step people down to strenthen his/her own identites, that is to be superior that others, these people aren't guilty, they are just unconcious.
be a concious being and feel who "I AM" in you.
you are who you are, search for you inner you, not the identities you hold or mental labels you place on yourself
i dentifications of course.
whatever you possess, does not define your true self.
Being the CEO in a big company does not make who you are,
Discovery of a new substance, new physics law, or any achievements does not sum up to who you are,
whether you are rich or poor, does it really matter?
does whatever talent you have make you who you are?
if Peter is smart, does it mean being smart is Peter?
or in a way you geeks may understand like i would....
ENGLISH: peter is rich, but rich is not peter
MATH: peter=handsome but handsome =/= peter
PHYSICS: you can derive a formula from p=F/A but you can't derive from anything else to give that formula
BIO: parent cell gives daughter cell, daughter cell can't smply combine to give parent cell
CHEMISTRY: Mg + 2HCl ----> H2 + MgCl2, the reaction is irreversible.
We are the initials of everything, we make achivements, money, friendship, and every other identities, but identites can't sum up to who we are.
When we are born, we are not given any identities, it's what we made up in life that gave us so many identities, that made our simple life, confusing.
and of course, to disentagle from identities, we simply have to see the true image in us.
i used to hear this line from someone,
THE PERSON: can we just go to your house instead?
ME: no, let's just stick to going to your house
THE PERSON: dun wan la.
ME: why? but your house is so big... (jokingly)
THE PERSON: i know rite...
is the house somehow making up who this person is? the person thinks that by possessing the house, the person becomes superior, and that made that person proud, full of identites, and able to gain attention, but deep inside, the house did not represent the person, but only his ego or i would call arrogance.
so what if you have talents in acting, singging, dancing, playing piano, mastering many languages, intelligent, rich, handsome, pretty or perfect?
its only when at the brink of life, that people tend to realise, that these are just merely identifications,
in an anology: these are the play of a sketch, they show out the character, but they can never substitute the character.
deep inside, we are ourself, we are our LIFE, and we are not define by what we achieved or what we possesses. be confused about who you truly are, cuz then only you will realise the actor in you, not the act.
do not become a person i know of that this person is so defined by what he/she possesses (nothing much of course but a lot of self fiction story and exaggeration to create a false identity)
so deeply unconcious that he/she tend to be using "I", "ME", "MYSELF","MINE" very much frequently.
and he/she would step people down to strenthen his/her own identites, that is to be superior that others, these people aren't guilty, they are just unconcious.
be a concious being and feel who "I AM" in you.
you are who you are, search for you inner you, not the identities you hold or mental labels you place on yourself
Tuesday, October 11, 2011
6th and 7th kind.......
people i've met so far have five types, today i realise there is the sixth and seventh kind....
6th: arrogant people/know all/so call "leaders"/attention seeker.
these are thee worst people you could ever met....
i don't need to say much... just analyse when you hear this conversation....
A: why can't we do it in your house ?
B: dun wan la.
A: but then it's better to finish it there...
B: dun wan la.
A: but your house is so big (jokingly)
here's the best part...
B: I KNOW RITE....
i shall not reveal further story, so that the person dun realise it's them.
7th : i am a "peace-maker"
these peace-maker usually turn out to be trouble makers, thinking that they are good in settling things, standing up for a friend, so call protecting someone they love but truth is, they hurt them more and they do this by hurting their friend's enemy. what else i can say, you hurt two person at a go and you call it peace-making? clowns whom do not know their extend of joke.
they think they are sorting things out when really, they are complicating it up, and of course who are they to realise all these, all they care is "i want my friends to be happy" BUT.... they forget to speak the next phrase.... "... so that i can create a happy environment for myself as well............."
(once again, this message serves as no message, so dun perasan so much unless you yourself feels that you are person like this, this is a general message which serves as no hate, just to let the world know the existence of people as said)
6th: arrogant people/know all/so call "leaders"/attention seeker.
these are thee worst people you could ever met....
i don't need to say much... just analyse when you hear this conversation....
A: why can't we do it in your house ?
B: dun wan la.
A: but then it's better to finish it there...
B: dun wan la.
A: but your house is so big (jokingly)
here's the best part...
B: I KNOW RITE....
i shall not reveal further story, so that the person dun realise it's them.
7th : i am a "peace-maker"
these peace-maker usually turn out to be trouble makers, thinking that they are good in settling things, standing up for a friend, so call protecting someone they love but truth is, they hurt them more and they do this by hurting their friend's enemy. what else i can say, you hurt two person at a go and you call it peace-making? clowns whom do not know their extend of joke.
they think they are sorting things out when really, they are complicating it up, and of course who are they to realise all these, all they care is "i want my friends to be happy" BUT.... they forget to speak the next phrase.... "... so that i can create a happy environment for myself as well............."
(once again, this message serves as no message, so dun perasan so much unless you yourself feels that you are person like this, this is a general message which serves as no hate, just to let the world know the existence of people as said)
Some people...
1.... are those who thinks "i am great and i am right" and let me tell you this...
NO one is right nor wrong, NO one can say she/he is not offending anyone, NO one has the right to blame others, CUZ we all aren't right.
and for all of you out there who think you are "AWESOME", "GREAT", "CORRECT", you all are nothing but one who thinks "I am a freaking superb know-all"
If the fact that our solar system has nine planets is wrong, and the fact that there are only twelve constellation is also wrong... who has the right to tell he/she is right? (next thing you know, the fact that earth is spherical is also wrong... wait.... IT IS WRONG, it's oblate spheroid!)
the point is, we think with majority, when majority agrees, does it mean it must be right ? we have just proven three major facts wrong.
and...................
everyone used to think einstein is wrong, but in the end ? he is right!
this also tells us we have no right to prove others wrong as well.
2. ....are those who acts like child, or the term i like to use is (c***p b***h)
I am amazed that even after 18 years old, some children can really be like children.
Maybe that's why they are persistent in saying "childhood is the best" very much frequent.
They would pretty much prefer the childish way of settling things, they backstab and gives you a cold look when they pass by, pretty much like an arrogant b***h.
and thus you can figure out why the class start to give you a cold shoulder...
these people are by-far the human with lowest form of evolution, they somehow skipped civilisation.
they does nothing when they are backup-less, so they start with their nearest friends, and the from there, they gather more scums along the way.
and when you meet one, be sure not to do the same, do not act like these low level beings, do not give them any stare, just ignore their existence and that's the best you can do.
cuz someone told me before... "the greatest revenge in life, is to show the other person you are living JUST as WELL WITOUT them"
i shall mention NO names on this.
and for your kind information, i am living well.
3. ... who are like dogs, they are in serious need for masters....
these are people who act like dogs, speak like one, and they does as told. These are the second lowest form of being. Especially when you are a man, stand up and do things for yourself like you have your own guts. dun stand behind someone's shadow.
When they get a true friend, they are lucky enough to get someone to cast the dogginess in them away.
What if they get someone else ?
that's when they will dog around like little puppies, forgetting every other friend they have, rather sacrifice all his/her friend to stick with this master.
these people are also termed "friend-choser", those who chooses better friend and dumps the old one, pretty much of a clique, only that if you are in a clique, you dun serve other members like a little puppies.
the one i knew is extreme, carrying bags, sacrificial object, 24 hour bodyguard, companion in activity, and pretty much the BUTLER.
to you who like to stick around people's life, let me give you a final advise, Get Your Own Life.
dun forget this is a doggy dog world, your master can always pet another dog, or turn into another dog just like you.
4. ... overreacting people, whose their defence is to offence...
i am going to be very truthful bout this.... i am one of it. =='''
i overreact most of the time to small things, or you can call it sensitivity. these are the people with lowest safety level. they constantly feels unsafe, that people are offending them all the time, discriminating them, that people hates them.
some are born this way, some are induced, for me, i am the induced one.
i am not going to give myself any reason or make myself sound good in anyway. i am an overreacting head-cracked and super insecure little boy who build up a wall against everyone.
i am also not going to blame how these idiots has caused such a big influence in my life that i become like this, all i can say is that, i could have done something back then to prevent the insecurity, but i did not, so i end up a miserable troubled child.
to the extend of that i am building up a wall against close ones. not believing anything.
All i can say is that, i am now hurt-proof.
However, this is not something to be proud of, as much as i am not devoting any love, i am not feeling any at all from people who try to show it. something good you think?
i offend people to protect myself and keep me save, each time i think someone is trying to hurt me with words, which happen frequently. all i ask is not forgival but a simple understanding. =) and for you out there who still don't understand.... pls, get outta my life. =D
But who else can i blame other than all the three types of people above that appeared in my life ?
But again, i have no rights to blame anyone like i've mentioned myself, so i am not going to conflict my words. i shall bear the brunt. I am an insecure and overreacting troubled boy =)
5. .... who stay by your side when in times of trouble...
do i need to say more ? so touched (T.T)
*if you think this message serves as a hate message, YOU ARE WRONG! i only mention this based on the type of people in this world, so if you somehow FELT it, it's you, not me. you must have somehow show some degree of agreement that you are those kind of people, that's why you perasan, so..... don't, i din mention names, you are therefore not included, dun self-include and then backstab me like a lil b***h again =D *
NO one is right nor wrong, NO one can say she/he is not offending anyone, NO one has the right to blame others, CUZ we all aren't right.
and for all of you out there who think you are "AWESOME", "GREAT", "CORRECT", you all are nothing but one who thinks "I am a freaking superb know-all"
If the fact that our solar system has nine planets is wrong, and the fact that there are only twelve constellation is also wrong... who has the right to tell he/she is right? (next thing you know, the fact that earth is spherical is also wrong... wait.... IT IS WRONG, it's oblate spheroid!)
the point is, we think with majority, when majority agrees, does it mean it must be right ? we have just proven three major facts wrong.
and...................
everyone used to think einstein is wrong, but in the end ? he is right!
this also tells us we have no right to prove others wrong as well.
2. ....are those who acts like child, or the term i like to use is (c***p b***h)
I am amazed that even after 18 years old, some children can really be like children.
Maybe that's why they are persistent in saying "childhood is the best" very much frequent.
They would pretty much prefer the childish way of settling things, they backstab and gives you a cold look when they pass by, pretty much like an arrogant b***h.
and thus you can figure out why the class start to give you a cold shoulder...
these people are by-far the human with lowest form of evolution, they somehow skipped civilisation.
they does nothing when they are backup-less, so they start with their nearest friends, and the from there, they gather more scums along the way.
and when you meet one, be sure not to do the same, do not act like these low level beings, do not give them any stare, just ignore their existence and that's the best you can do.
cuz someone told me before... "the greatest revenge in life, is to show the other person you are living JUST as WELL WITOUT them"
i shall mention NO names on this.
and for your kind information, i am living well.
3. ... who are like dogs, they are in serious need for masters....
these are people who act like dogs, speak like one, and they does as told. These are the second lowest form of being. Especially when you are a man, stand up and do things for yourself like you have your own guts. dun stand behind someone's shadow.
When they get a true friend, they are lucky enough to get someone to cast the dogginess in them away.
What if they get someone else ?
that's when they will dog around like little puppies, forgetting every other friend they have, rather sacrifice all his/her friend to stick with this master.
these people are also termed "friend-choser", those who chooses better friend and dumps the old one, pretty much of a clique, only that if you are in a clique, you dun serve other members like a little puppies.
the one i knew is extreme, carrying bags, sacrificial object, 24 hour bodyguard, companion in activity, and pretty much the BUTLER.
to you who like to stick around people's life, let me give you a final advise, Get Your Own Life.
dun forget this is a doggy dog world, your master can always pet another dog, or turn into another dog just like you.
4. ... overreacting people, whose their defence is to offence...
i am going to be very truthful bout this.... i am one of it. =='''
i overreact most of the time to small things, or you can call it sensitivity. these are the people with lowest safety level. they constantly feels unsafe, that people are offending them all the time, discriminating them, that people hates them.
some are born this way, some are induced, for me, i am the induced one.
i am not going to give myself any reason or make myself sound good in anyway. i am an overreacting head-cracked and super insecure little boy who build up a wall against everyone.
i am also not going to blame how these idiots has caused such a big influence in my life that i become like this, all i can say is that, i could have done something back then to prevent the insecurity, but i did not, so i end up a miserable troubled child.
to the extend of that i am building up a wall against close ones. not believing anything.
All i can say is that, i am now hurt-proof.
However, this is not something to be proud of, as much as i am not devoting any love, i am not feeling any at all from people who try to show it. something good you think?
i offend people to protect myself and keep me save, each time i think someone is trying to hurt me with words, which happen frequently. all i ask is not forgival but a simple understanding. =) and for you out there who still don't understand.... pls, get outta my life. =D
But who else can i blame other than all the three types of people above that appeared in my life ?
But again, i have no rights to blame anyone like i've mentioned myself, so i am not going to conflict my words. i shall bear the brunt. I am an insecure and overreacting troubled boy =)
5. .... who stay by your side when in times of trouble...
do i need to say more ? so touched (T.T)
*if you think this message serves as a hate message, YOU ARE WRONG! i only mention this based on the type of people in this world, so if you somehow FELT it, it's you, not me. you must have somehow show some degree of agreement that you are those kind of people, that's why you perasan, so..... don't, i din mention names, you are therefore not included, dun self-include and then backstab me like a lil b***h again =D *
How to spell M-I-S-T-A-K-E ...
we all, in some point of our lives, have committed crime, offence, defence, or i would say "mistakes".
It's the route we've chosen in our lives, whether or not the path is bumpy, rubly, rocky, slippery, smooth, wide, straight, lotsa turnings, it's our choice that we've chosen that path. Some path led us back to the correct ones, some misled us to even more mistakes, and some are cul de sac (dead ends).
But it still comes back to... "it's our choice".
why regret when you can move on? why turn back when there is more to explore out front? and why look back when there are more to look forward to?
some loves to hold on, for me, i love to move on. whether or not your path is right or wrong, worthy or not, it's not up to people around you to judge, it's up to you to decide. All i could say is that... nothing we does ends up in vain, Mr.Newton have said "every action has an opposite and equal reaction", and this principle does not bound to physics only, but our lives as well. Some of our action might be wrong, but ask yourself... "so?"
We all aren't made stupid. we all have brains and this special organ of ours' can THINK and ANALYSE
thus, we learn a lesson.
Is drama-ing really neccessary? Is it neccessary to grief all day long? and is it neccessary to hold on and suffer further?
answer these question and think!
things happen for a reason, some are made to make you learn. so, learn from mistake and move on.
what's matter is that, no more same mistakes in future, or the lesson wil repeat itself like a tuition class.
It's the route we've chosen in our lives, whether or not the path is bumpy, rubly, rocky, slippery, smooth, wide, straight, lotsa turnings, it's our choice that we've chosen that path. Some path led us back to the correct ones, some misled us to even more mistakes, and some are cul de sac (dead ends).
But it still comes back to... "it's our choice".
why regret when you can move on? why turn back when there is more to explore out front? and why look back when there are more to look forward to?
some loves to hold on, for me, i love to move on. whether or not your path is right or wrong, worthy or not, it's not up to people around you to judge, it's up to you to decide. All i could say is that... nothing we does ends up in vain, Mr.Newton have said "every action has an opposite and equal reaction", and this principle does not bound to physics only, but our lives as well. Some of our action might be wrong, but ask yourself... "so?"
We all aren't made stupid. we all have brains and this special organ of ours' can THINK and ANALYSE
thus, we learn a lesson.
Is drama-ing really neccessary? Is it neccessary to grief all day long? and is it neccessary to hold on and suffer further?
answer these question and think!
things happen for a reason, some are made to make you learn. so, learn from mistake and move on.
what's matter is that, no more same mistakes in future, or the lesson wil repeat itself like a tuition class.
Friday, April 15, 2011
Driving mania......
SPECIAL THANKS TO BOTH MY COUSIN SIS, MICHELLE AND JESSICCA.....
i must agree i was a complete definition for failure in driving..... especially when i get scolding from my uncle i deteriorate even further..... symptom ? engine kept on dying off.....
this BUKIT thingy has prove to be a challenge to me the first time i tried itself. so.....
i made a smart plan....
i got my cousins (p.s having an awesome manual car) agree to give me some lesson...
here are our route... before getting to an ideal place to learn BUKIT...
house-->bandar botanic-->BKT tinggi fly over--> GENERAL HOSPITAL!!!
though we have planned to go aeon or even MPK building we end up in the general hospital! and i tell you its no more than a perfect place to learn your BUKIT at the top floor, parking area of course. i have been training from 6 o'clock to 7.30 p.m at the same place! and you guess it, not even a single vehicle pass by the top floor. And we were like reverse and trial and reverse and trial for almost more than 20 times i think. i was a complete failure at first but unlike my driving uncle they coach me well with politeness despite i think i might have broke their car... (=.=''') hehe... but after that it was smooth.... i can now do bukit wothout problem at will..... hahahahahahaha(so proud of myself)
And i nearly kill everyone when we went to Aeon, it was yellow light... and i speed coz i was afraid to stop. hehe! sorry bout that!
in a nut shell, i could get a hang of the BUKIT all thanks to both my cousin...
ADVISED: be nice to your cousins!
jessicca of course came up with a good idea to get a hang of the BUKIT, and michelle's coaching was awesome...
here's how i do it
1. stop by....
2. clutch,break pad.....then handbreak.
3. gear 1. (some prefer switching to free gear b4 switching back to gear1)
4. press clucth and accelerator(slightly on accelerator)
5. release clutch real slow
6. when you feel a bloating sensation, RELEASE the handbreak quickly.
7. simultaneouslty, DO NOT LET GO OF THE CLUCTH, keep it in position.
8. control your accelerator and move forward.
JESSICCA'S emergency step: press the clucth when you feel a jerky movement... then do balancing to move up.
TAADAAA..................................!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i must agree i was a complete definition for failure in driving..... especially when i get scolding from my uncle i deteriorate even further..... symptom ? engine kept on dying off.....
this BUKIT thingy has prove to be a challenge to me the first time i tried itself. so.....
i made a smart plan....
i got my cousins (p.s having an awesome manual car) agree to give me some lesson...
here are our route... before getting to an ideal place to learn BUKIT...
house-->bandar botanic-->BKT tinggi fly over--> GENERAL HOSPITAL!!!
though we have planned to go aeon or even MPK building we end up in the general hospital! and i tell you its no more than a perfect place to learn your BUKIT at the top floor, parking area of course. i have been training from 6 o'clock to 7.30 p.m at the same place! and you guess it, not even a single vehicle pass by the top floor. And we were like reverse and trial and reverse and trial for almost more than 20 times i think. i was a complete failure at first but unlike my driving uncle they coach me well with politeness despite i think i might have broke their car... (=.=''') hehe... but after that it was smooth.... i can now do bukit wothout problem at will..... hahahahahahaha(so proud of myself)
And i nearly kill everyone when we went to Aeon, it was yellow light... and i speed coz i was afraid to stop. hehe! sorry bout that!
in a nut shell, i could get a hang of the BUKIT all thanks to both my cousin...
ADVISED: be nice to your cousins!
jessicca of course came up with a good idea to get a hang of the BUKIT, and michelle's coaching was awesome...
here's how i do it
1. stop by....
2. clutch,break pad.....then handbreak.
3. gear 1. (some prefer switching to free gear b4 switching back to gear1)
4. press clucth and accelerator(slightly on accelerator)
5. release clutch real slow
6. when you feel a bloating sensation, RELEASE the handbreak quickly.
7. simultaneouslty, DO NOT LET GO OF THE CLUCTH, keep it in position.
8. control your accelerator and move forward.
JESSICCA'S emergency step: press the clucth when you feel a jerky movement... then do balancing to move up.
TAADAAA..................................!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Wednesday, April 13, 2011
FAILED CHICKEN CORDON BLEU....
yes, its not anything else but a dish from secret recipe..... i always hoped to eat this dish with crispy outer crust(skin), soft chicken flesh with black pepper sprinkle, its aroma pervading the atmosphere and the wonderful ambience of the secret recipe shop. not to mention the folded HAM squeeze into the chicken meat and flavoured together with cheese..... very appetizing rite? especially when you accompany the dish with a cup of hot and aromatic mocha with choclate sprinkles and molten chocolate as its base.... the taste of mocha blending with the delicious chicken cordon bleu is almost perfect.......
BUT..............................................................................................................................................
the chicken came out almost mushy, the ham is flavourless and not to mention the cheese..... cause its absent!!!! i was very dissapointed with TESCO SECRET RECIPE.....
even the cake my mother had ordered is as rigid as a stone, as if it has been in the freezer for YEARS.... complete failure, the only thing good is the mocha i have ordered..... and that's all... i am eating chicken cordon bleu again in other franchise....
PLS dun be jealous! hehe
BUT..............................................................................................................................................
the chicken came out almost mushy, the ham is flavourless and not to mention the cheese..... cause its absent!!!! i was very dissapointed with TESCO SECRET RECIPE.....
even the cake my mother had ordered is as rigid as a stone, as if it has been in the freezer for YEARS.... complete failure, the only thing good is the mocha i have ordered..... and that's all... i am eating chicken cordon bleu again in other franchise....
PLS dun be jealous! hehe
Tuesday, April 12, 2011
JPA INTERVIEW GONE WRONG.........
everything WAS SUPPOSE to go well but my stupid tounge screw up the whole thing and i think i might have blown away my own opportunity. Everything was going well in the introduction untill a part he asked me ...
Q: mengapa m'sia menghantar pelajar ke luar negara ?
seeing that he suddenly spoke in malay, i replied in BM as well.... and i found myself to have pauses so i switch back to english but it was wrong people.... WRONG! i don't know whether is this called as a condemn but he said..... "why do you suddenly switch back to english?"
"sorry, i am more used to speaking in english"
"no, you use BM and reply back to us"
and then everything begin to fall apart..... of course those malays in my group were feeling happy that i start with BM, then they can answer in BM! haiz..... other than that, everything is almost ok !
and also the discussion thingy wasn't OPEN, THUS be prepared and answer all your points dun leave good points behind! i was speaking so well and then it was other's turn when i ideas came to me but it was too late, others have spoken and i cannot interrupt.... and thats how a few GOOD POINTS went flying in the sky... PLEASE.... do some research on your course people! there is this boy who got a question
Q: what is the difference btw neurologist and neurosurgeon?
A; ermmmmmmm..................................................... neurologist study brain and neurosurgeon examine the brain...... ???
and i was like =.=''' and XD and LOL !!!!!!!!!
and they suddenly realise my existence and turn to me with the same question...... but seeing that i have done my h/w the interviewer said ......."ya, good".
MY sudden BM to BI thing is still disastrous and of course not to mention some good points went swimming in the drain....
THUS, ADVISE: 1) USE ONLY ONEEEEEEEEEEEEEE LANGUAGE AND STICK TO IT!
2)PRACTICE NOT ONLY SPONTANEOUSNESS, CREATIVE THINKING BUT ALSO FAST THINKING!
Q: mengapa m'sia menghantar pelajar ke luar negara ?
seeing that he suddenly spoke in malay, i replied in BM as well.... and i found myself to have pauses so i switch back to english but it was wrong people.... WRONG! i don't know whether is this called as a condemn but he said..... "why do you suddenly switch back to english?"
"sorry, i am more used to speaking in english"
"no, you use BM and reply back to us"
and then everything begin to fall apart..... of course those malays in my group were feeling happy that i start with BM, then they can answer in BM! haiz..... other than that, everything is almost ok !
and also the discussion thingy wasn't OPEN, THUS be prepared and answer all your points dun leave good points behind! i was speaking so well and then it was other's turn when i ideas came to me but it was too late, others have spoken and i cannot interrupt.... and thats how a few GOOD POINTS went flying in the sky... PLEASE.... do some research on your course people! there is this boy who got a question
Q: what is the difference btw neurologist and neurosurgeon?
A; ermmmmmmm..................................................... neurologist study brain and neurosurgeon examine the brain...... ???
and i was like =.=''' and XD and LOL !!!!!!!!!
and they suddenly realise my existence and turn to me with the same question...... but seeing that i have done my h/w the interviewer said ......."ya, good".
MY sudden BM to BI thing is still disastrous and of course not to mention some good points went swimming in the drain....
THUS, ADVISE: 1) USE ONLY ONEEEEEEEEEEEEEE LANGUAGE AND STICK TO IT!
2)PRACTICE NOT ONLY SPONTANEOUSNESS, CREATIVE THINKING BUT ALSO FAST THINKING!
Friday, April 8, 2011
It's all about me,me,me,me,me......
in case you realise the lyrics, yes! its from auburn-all about him. BUT its not the point here. today, i'm going all philosophy AGAIN.... so bear with me.....
LIFE IS ALL ABOUT "BEING ALIVE"
there are of course many way to decipher the phrase 'being alive' ... but my way of describing it, is to be more self-centred(in a good way of course). After all, life is all bout living for yourself, whatever you do, you speak, you think all links back to YOURSELF... even when you are helping the poors...
CONFUSED?
eg: earn money---> living cost---> extra to buy starbucks--->solve living cost problem+happy to have starbucks--->yourself(HAPPY)
eg: get a friend---> a pal to discuss problem--->yourself(happy)
---> help a friend---> closer friendship+ happy to help---> better self with one closer friend.
now you get it? it all links back to you! helping others makes yourself happy.... buying stuff, settling your bills makes you happy and even as simple as eating ice cream makes you fulfill with life.... YOU ARE THE CENTRE OF YOUR UNIVERSE....
start ruling your world... dun let others gain access to your world... helping others or making yourself significant in others life is completely useless when you yourself is not significant in your own universe....as i said, every doing leads to yourself... making yourself significant in otherts life makes you feel that you are important but in reality you are just another slave in other universe.... there are other paths, in fact infinity paths to lead to yourself, not neccessarily that stupid path.... and when you fail to make youreself significant, you start sobbing... whats the matter with you ??? LIVE YOUR LIVE... PROGRESS AND BE HAPPY...
AFTER ALL, HOW MANY DECADES CAN WE LIVE ?
LIFE IS ALL ABOUT "BEING ALIVE"
there are of course many way to decipher the phrase 'being alive' ... but my way of describing it, is to be more self-centred(in a good way of course). After all, life is all bout living for yourself, whatever you do, you speak, you think all links back to YOURSELF... even when you are helping the poors...
CONFUSED?
eg: earn money---> living cost---> extra to buy starbucks--->solve living cost problem+happy to have starbucks--->yourself(HAPPY)
eg: get a friend---> a pal to discuss problem--->yourself(happy)
---> help a friend---> closer friendship+ happy to help---> better self with one closer friend.
now you get it? it all links back to you! helping others makes yourself happy.... buying stuff, settling your bills makes you happy and even as simple as eating ice cream makes you fulfill with life.... YOU ARE THE CENTRE OF YOUR UNIVERSE....
start ruling your world... dun let others gain access to your world... helping others or making yourself significant in others life is completely useless when you yourself is not significant in your own universe....as i said, every doing leads to yourself... making yourself significant in otherts life makes you feel that you are important but in reality you are just another slave in other universe.... there are other paths, in fact infinity paths to lead to yourself, not neccessarily that stupid path.... and when you fail to make youreself significant, you start sobbing... whats the matter with you ??? LIVE YOUR LIVE... PROGRESS AND BE HAPPY...
AFTER ALL, HOW MANY DECADES CAN WE LIVE ?
PM3 rocks... JPA rocks... KEvIN rocks... ( 0.o''')
today's life was almost amazing to live through.... i must agree that after hearing a CERTAIN NEWS(SECRET) which only close friends of mine knows, i am really jealous and feels not special anymore beside worrying about my performance. but still i spent a whole day in college today(despite is a holiday) with some of my collegemates studying...
*more of completing homework actually
but nevetheless, it was very fun since just the four of us were challenging ourself with BIO and MATHS. I hereby specially thanks Daniel, Patrick and Chia for making my day wonderful...
and also my dear caunsellor which made me realise AGAIN that comparison and competition is unneccessary. Someone being better than you does not mean that he or she will in any way diminish yourself, instead we should focus on our set goal and achieve it in our own way, comparing with others will just provide endless jealousy and envy which in turn will bring unhappiness. my friend RAHUPATHI which studies based on the princips of comparison and competition in which not only made himself unhappy but others around him too. Only a dear friend can be immune to his attitude ... and thats me! however, i strongly opposes this idea of his... as i said, no point comparing when you dun even know what will happen in the future.... my point is that your goal is there and just achieve it, no time for comparisons!!!
REMEMBER: NO ONE CAN DIMINISH YOURSELF BUT YOURSELF!
STOP THE COMPARISON AND COMPETITION AND START IMPROVING BY CHALLENGING YOURSELF NOT OTHERS!
plus, i had a great time with my BFF(just an expression),Kevin, in fruity and many topics were brought up, of the past and present. both of us burst into incessant streams of laughter as both eagerly trying to joke all the way. i truly believe that laughter is the best medicine....thus, LOL and dun be ashame of doing so....and you made my day! good job! truly wish for another gathering ....
*more of completing homework actually
but nevetheless, it was very fun since just the four of us were challenging ourself with BIO and MATHS. I hereby specially thanks Daniel, Patrick and Chia for making my day wonderful...
and also my dear caunsellor which made me realise AGAIN that comparison and competition is unneccessary. Someone being better than you does not mean that he or she will in any way diminish yourself, instead we should focus on our set goal and achieve it in our own way, comparing with others will just provide endless jealousy and envy which in turn will bring unhappiness. my friend RAHUPATHI which studies based on the princips of comparison and competition in which not only made himself unhappy but others around him too. Only a dear friend can be immune to his attitude ... and thats me! however, i strongly opposes this idea of his... as i said, no point comparing when you dun even know what will happen in the future.... my point is that your goal is there and just achieve it, no time for comparisons!!!
REMEMBER: NO ONE CAN DIMINISH YOURSELF BUT YOURSELF!
STOP THE COMPARISON AND COMPETITION AND START IMPROVING BY CHALLENGING YOURSELF NOT OTHERS!
plus, i had a great time with my BFF(just an expression),Kevin, in fruity and many topics were brought up, of the past and present. both of us burst into incessant streams of laughter as both eagerly trying to joke all the way. i truly believe that laughter is the best medicine....thus, LOL and dun be ashame of doing so....and you made my day! good job! truly wish for another gathering ....
Thursday, April 7, 2011
a new blog..... or so called K.log(kernyen's blog)
YEAHHHHHHHHHHHHHH....................... i have a new blo9g now..... i will not be as active but be sure to know that i shall be posting once in a while.... forget piuctures and videos, there won't be much of it.... but follow up my blog and you will gain lots..... seriously.
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