19岁的天空

19岁的那一天，突然一阵阵的回忆在脑海里反复地出现。

回想起18年的人生，我到底成就了什么？ 我有没有真正的＂活了＂ 人生？

虽然，学业生涯里的表现不算很好，但也不是很差。在课外活动方面，虽然自己不是很出色，毕竟篮球我也不会，足球更不用说，但我毕竟还是领导了许多会团。

18年来，家总是最温心的窝，它是我能依赖，能躲开世界的避风港。

而朋友之间，我确认识了许多兄弟和姐妹，有困难时能真正待在你身旁的朋友还真是少，但还是要感谢观音菩萨保佑。XD

最后悔的事就是认识了一些根本不应该认识的人，但如果不是他们，我又怎能学到社会的世界？ 又怎能看见＂人＂的颜色？ 

他们教会我不去想太多，也教会了我放底对别人的期望。

我不得不承认因为社会上的残酷，我渐渐学会了用心计。但还是发现自己最终下不了手，按不下良心。即使浪费力气对付一些烂人反而让自己背上了负面的因果，还不如干脆忘了他们然后重新找回自我。

19岁的第一天。我领悟了，笑了，疯了。 感谢一般有难时，也不离开我的好兄弟，和大姐帮我庆生。我相信这美好的19岁开头会是象征我第19年的美好生活。

19岁的天空。。。是晴天 ：）

无。

血色般的夜空。。。
洪水强的雷雨。。。
活尸般的躺着。。。
高密度的隐着。。。
北极冷的心肠。。。
无情酷的表情。。。
无命体的生活。。。
无耐的提醒着。。。

无情,无意,无爱,无恨。。。。。。无痛。

Winter chills...

The wind gust with freezing breeze, while winter's chill rose up my spine. Walking alone in the streets with dimmed lights, solitaire on a christmas night with the moon barely lighthen.
The din of conversations spread from houses, cotages and even shacks, through atmosphere as they vibrate among particles within space to reach my ear.
"look at them... Look at yourself..." i soliloquized.
a lonesome ranger strolling around on a winter night, with no one to love, no one to share joy, and barely alive inside.
The heart is too frozen to warm others', the joy too rotten to give and  the love... too little to spare.
A mansion filled with gold, yet the poorest guy with no one to hold.

爱钱

如果我应该把爱献出去的话...
我宁愿爱钱....
因为就算全世界人类都离你而去的时候,
它还是任燃在你口袋里...

Broken

       
             A broken bone, a torn ligament, and even a deep wound can mend with time... but never a broken heart.

        It is can only be hidden, forgotten and camouflaged... as we learn to fake a smile behind the oozing pain that flows out from it's wound.

           Sticks and stone, may break bones, but words causes more harm than physical injuries... it is a lifetime wound, a wound that never heals.

[官方HQ]A-Lin 給我一個理由忘記(MV完整版)

給我一個理由忘記... 我们拥有的那些回忆...我们那深刻的友情...
給我一個理由忘記... 忘记我们的一切..............................................
給我一個理由忘記... 你.

咖啡...

热腾腾的它,
散发着香浓浓的味道,
奔放着一团团的蒸气,
解放着热呼呼的气息,



它不是灵药,
却能愈合心上的伤痕,

        它不是解药,
         却能解散眼里的泪水,

             它不是麻药,
             却能麻醉感情的疼痛,




它不是忘情水,
却能让人暂时忘了往事,

什么都不是的它...
却能温暖我已冰冻的心...

lost and trapped.

Lost...
i no longer see,
i no longer listens,
trapped...
trap in my own world,
a world of despair,
of depression...

i am lost... and i have lost.

清醒了吗?

心疼了, 会有人理吗?
累透了, 会有人疼吗?
泪流了, 会有人察吗?
伤了心, 会有人弥补吗?
心累了, 会有人鼓励吗?
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没人理了。。。你会清醒吗?

life's a broken balance...

society of imbalances,
world of inequality,
Verse of humans,
born so different,
so unique...
Some were loved,
others were disposed,
life's a broken balance,
a balance of life that was never reached,
never equal.

I called it.... Epiphany.

Its not about the money? Its not about the fame? i guess its another perception used to deceive people with inabilities to manipulate, who lacks intelligence, and people that had lost grip of reality.
Am i cruel? No, i am being realistic. Am i pessimistic? No, i am facing the true faces of society. Am i demonic? No, i am adapting to survive.
People say its not about the price tag, but how often do the society view a homeless person on the street with a less-than-perfect appearance, the equal of a pop star with ripped body, loaded, and perhaps almost charming appearance? will you? will I? to be honest, neither will I.
In today's society, how much does kindness worth? how much does being honest pays? and how much does being yourself gets you in life? A sense of pitiful from others? i think so.
We say money cant buy happiness, but how often do we see a homeless guy on the street enjoys his life better than a person living in a bungalow? NONE. in fact, would u rather cry on a bicycle or a Porsche with a few charming whores comforting you?

YOU SAY MONEY CANT BUY LOVE? do you really believe in that? Hahaha.

And of course, in today's society, the degree of rotten has become more than severe and its rancid stench almost brimming in atmosphere if not already pervaded into the air in you house, if i were to describe its situation.

Money used to be the measuring tool of the status you are in, that determines the amount of attention you get, and the basically everything else. Today? Haha, things as simple as your family background, your appearance, your attitude, your habit and even your lifestyle becomes a measuring tool to the society that if people should be even giving you their so call precious attention. These measuring tools not only exist, they are well developing silently, and quite rapidly too.

YOU THINK YOU AREN'T ONE OF THEM? THINK AGAIN. How often do you rather wipe your boss's shoe rather than helping your old haggard parent, barely able to stand, to tie his shoe? THINK!

YOU THINK YOU ARE NOT ONE OF THEM? YOU ARE WRONG. We cannot escape the fact that people in this world are just as discriminative, and we can never claim equality in any form. Men used to be dominant in leading the world, soon be replaced by women in current era, but does that proves equality? NO! it is just a switch in dominance in which women are taking control. I, however, have no issue or in any right mind offending the fact that women are smarter, more capable, this is just a mere example.

YOU ARE ONE OF THEM!!! WE ALL ARE, YOU, I, US, THEY, ALL! Do not deny the fact that when a gangster looking street boy threatens to punch someone, he is all demonic, he is supposedly ferocious, malicious, mischievous, miscellaneous and a sinister on leash. But when a popular artist such as Chris brown, has actually brutally assaulted the person that has given him love and compassion, he was labelled "he's too deeply in love that he acted out on anger, he should be forgiven"
WE CANNOT DENY how we throw more concentration on the "popular friend", more of our affection, our care and our friendship compare to the guy next to you, whom borrows you his notes, given his time to teach you and cares bout the friend you are to him.

 It is not whether ifs.... but how much we choose to cling on this sad reality. And like all reality, time will soon replace these "expensive" people with new ones. And like all items on market... there will be some declining in market price, while some rises with time... so are humans... so very HUMANE...

WE SWITCH SIDES. WE SWITCH POLES. AND WE STAND ALONGSIDE THE STRONGEST ONES. CHOOSING FRIENDS. CHOOSING SIDES. CHOOSING DOMINANCE. A completely harsh reality WE CANNOT DENY...

you may ask for my suddenness switch in attitude....
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I called it..... epiphany.

Darkest hours before dawn....

It's 3am in the morning, consciousness began to slip away from my mind as comfortness rise to a climax. Pillows and blankets wrapped around like an embrace of a mother, but I just could not fall asleep. Bits of depression had kept my petite heart pounding in anger, and my mind raging with memories....
I could not help but think the ignorance I was treated with, the discrimination of which I call him brother. Hormones surged into my brain, keeping anger at its boiling point. The mind would not stop reminding itself of the horrors in the betrayal of a dear friend.
Has history repeated itself? Or am I began to turn moronic that I believed and throw myself into a trap I once fallen? Am I to naive to had thought he changed? Or is this just the way god is reminding me to face reality?
SHHHHHHHHHH!!! I shouted myself out of annoyance. Perhaps I have gone mad, gone completely mad with overdose of anger and a spoonful of "thinking too much" remedies, lethal combination indeed. It has always fascinated me how human indulge in pain subconciously by feeding depression, anger, and anxiety with more thoughts causing them to fall into deeper pain. But here I am forcing myself to think of the ignorance of a dear brother which killed a part of myself.
What did I do to deserve such coldness while he could be so interactive with the others? Was it me? Or it was never meant for our frequency to resonate at the same hertz? Perhaps that is why we belonged to most extremes of worlds.
Little did I realise it wasn't me but him, an epiphany which kicked in late.
"Friends are forever" has always been my motto, simply because I give in initiatives to keep friends beside. Some say friends come and go, perhaps they are just too shameful to face their inability to keep someone , EVEN ONE, long enough. Little did I realize it wasn't my fault he couldn't keep me as his lifetime friend, and maybe even more..... A real brother instead, it wasn't my fault he choose to be discriminative and ignorant, and it definitely isn't my fault he is too lazy to reply. And one thing is certain as well, it is not my loss if he losses a lifetime friendship, and a brother, he should now take responsibility of his choice of action. Was it my loss, if I stop investing time on crooks? Definitely not.
And I feel shame, and grieves for a person with lots of friends but has no life long friendships, a person with many people around him.... Which he had to impress. Also, someone with lots of karma to pay. What I could say?




Pathetic, just pathetic.... 

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Where is the rainbow?

Where was the rainbow,
the myriad colours than once beautify my life?
Where's the RED heart that i used to have? for the love i have given willingly...
Where's the ORANGE prosperity? the glory that has made me stood in success...
Where's the YELLOW sun? for the sunny smiles that used to shine onto others...
Where's the lush GREEN forest? that once outgrows with trees of wisdom...
Where's the BLUE sky? that i used to fly in freedom....
Where's the INDIGO sea? where i used to swim in happiness...
Where's the violet love.... that i once have?

Its a world of grey shades now... all variant colours has fallen... fallen out of its place...

Hasty time...

The wind chimed in a melodious tune, while splinters of rain drops beats in a rhythmic percussion band. A warming silk blanket wraps the body of a young boy that crouched like a new born in the comforting hug of the mattress. It was the perfect situation to fall into deep slumber, with the sweetest dream swirling around in his subconscious mind. But, something has kept him awake, a feeling, a thought, or perhaps a struck of pain and fear that pollutes the serenity of the moment and ripped the comfort out of the boy.

It was no more than the ticks and tocks of the great grandfather clock that stood sturdy at the corner of the room that had caused all this. Though a series of stories on phantoms, shadows or monsters would sound slightly more logical, but it was the endless flow of time that had kept the boy awake. He realised how he had "jump" through time with just blink of an eye; it feels as if yesterday he was still lingering the coast line of the lapis lazuli sea with his fellow classmates. As if a turn of head ago, he enjoyed the flickering sapphire lights of the rare bioluminescent plankton by Lang Tengah. And as though it was still a moment ago that he strolled around in SS15 interacting with a bunch of mad friends.

An old adage once mentioned " time waits for no man", if time had waited for him, he would have appreciated more, but life hasn't invented a "take two". He could not help but brimmed his mind with ample remorse. He knew he could have had more to experienced when he had a brother if he hadn't just treasure his EGO more than friendship, he knew he could have a family he hadn't been so pessimistic, and he knew he could have made everything much wonderful if he hadn't just think too much. And ironically, he still does.

As the pain deepens, he could barely breathe. Tears began to welled up around his eyes, and soon cascade downs his cheeks as the eyes could not hold much more. Sliding his face across the cushy bolster, he wiped his tears away and mumbled... "too hasty"



人生没take two, 珍惜身边的人和物...

 

静。。。

宁静究竟是什么？

是一个无声的世界？

是心灵上的平和？

或是一个无伴的生活方式？

究竟，宁静是一种乐趣？

还是孤独的借口？

我们也许永远不会明白其中的道理，

但它却是我们疗伤的秘方，

也是平和的好伙伴，

那么。。。

选择宁静的我，

选择逃避世界的我，

究竟，是好？是坏？

如果你想起我, 你会想到什么?

郁可唯-微加幸福

城市像一座迷宮 但我不服
誰說一個人不能走出
與你相愛迷糊讓步 到你退出
再多分岔路 回憶很清楚
我慢慢重組...

這何嘗不是一種領悟..........讓你把自己看清楚

again and again...

perhaps i've forgotten the pain and scars that have patterned my heart... the weakness of friendship and the cruelty of people... perhaps the image i saw of humane was just a mere disguise of a devil, that crept around waiting for it's chance... how i would bear hope on friendship is just pure stupid! love is self given... and only self can give...

也許。。。

也許我太天真，我太單純，
讓自己再一次的受傷。

也許我永遠學不會這世間的人類。。。
有多自私，有多無情。

也許我忘了曾見過的那些熟悉的面孔，
那些冷酷無情，笑裡藏刀的表情。

也許我的警覺性不高，
所以踏入了這些猛獸的陷阱。

也許我應該多愛自己，
而不讓感情蒙蔽了雙眼。

也許心眼該是時候。。。
打開了！

我是一隻小小鳥。。。

終於踏出黑暗的我反而怕黑。。。
對什麼都有恐懼。。。
我不是感到沒安全感，而是害怕如此平靜的生活會再離我而去。。。
我很享受現在的生活，雖然有許多考試和大學面試要去面對，但這些壓力反而讓我忘掉過去的痛。。。。
讓我有一個理由做我真實的自己，一個不需要假裝的我。。。
當人問我為甚麼那麼平靜的時候，我能回答"考試嗎。。。壓力很大"
當人問我為甚麼那麼開心？ 我能回答 "剛讀完書，有點輕鬆自在"
也許也只有這樣，我才能逃避這世界里的人類吧。。。

而面對考試的我，反而能得到朋友和家人的祝福。。。被疼愛的感覺，很快樂。
而同樣配我面對考試的大學朋友，讓我有一種"並肩作戰"的感覺。
然而，現在讓我覺得厭倦的卻是一直在我耳旁投訴的朋友。。。雖然他是需要幫助，但我也有我自己的生活要過。。。你自己創出來的禍，你就應該自己解決，就選你解決不了，那也不代表我就一定做的到吧。。。 我已經不想插手了，別比我動手對付你好不好？ 關心也要有限，你不能一直要我關心你這一個朋友而要我忽略我的學業吧？

孔明的光明。。。

孔明点亮，生生的火焰让孔明灯高飞，成了夜空里的光明，代表的是我们一个个的祝福与希望。
孔明高飞，点亮夜间，就如黑暗里的一道光，煎熬的终点，未来的阳光。
孔明远走，把希望和祝福的信息带给了神明，渴望得到神明的保佑。

花火陪伴孔明灯在黑夜里一同带光，为这些小小的邮差们把“信” 地给我们的神明。。。
高飞吧 。。。 孔明灯！

but there's a side to you that i never knew, never knew...

you're not the only one with problems... cuz....

there's no fear of losing.....

你不仁，别怪我不义。

to all "promise-to-change" bitches....

sorry for being insecure, but it has driven me...

tired of rash promises.

IF YOU CANT KEEP ONE, DO NOT MAKE ONE.

if promises is just an affirmation you made to strengthen your words, please stop it right now. we need not any of your rash promises. such level are only for uncivilized beings, do not mimic them. i am sure we are all civilised people. make sure of everything before you open your mouth and speak of these words "i promise..."

新年的日子。。。

今年的新年就这样淡淡的度过，父母到burma 去旅行，把我们抛在家里。
真是一点责任感都没有，但至少，我不是一个人度过。有两位妹妹的陪伴，我也够了。
我有我有责任要照顾他们，所以我不能向我父母一样，我跟不能在新年的时候把他们放在家里自己去跟朋友聚会。我绝对不能做不仁不义的事情。
原本跟kah yong 约好的拜年计划如今又被取消了。他们不得空，我了解。
但时间是自己安排的，所谓的活动也没有理由维持整天吧？ 你不能把那一天里的一个小活动跟全天下奉告你那一天不得空吧？ 这样的事情，我见多了，只是不想特意去猜穿他们而已。

做人不能这样。。。

做人不能这样。虽然别人得罪我们，就算他们有什么过错，也不论到我们因此的对待。如果我们用恶劣的方式对待他人，那我们跟他们有什么分别？我自前被自己的恨给蒙蔽了双眼，所以获得特别痛苦，我想通了，也不恨了。如果你说要把一个人当透明人，你就应该说到，做到。身为一个透明人，他的所作所为也不不会影响你，如果你反映了，你就失败了。
我不了解，礼物买了就好了，搜礼物的人知道我们的心意就好了，为什么一定要礼物到手才甘愿？收礼物的人都未曾投诉，我们有资格投诉吗？送礼是一种心意，不是在于礼物，有心就可以了。其他的，别人不负责任就让他吗。。。 如你所说的，做好自己就好了。
怨恨是一种很危险的东西，你不把它管好，他会毁了你。也因此，让身边的人受到影响。

短暂。。。

我得了如此意外，惊人的成绩。高兴的感觉却只曾得了半天，现在，却越想越无趣。
我不懂为什么，也不了解为什么。但我努力这么久，牺牲那么多换来的成绩不应该只曾得了半天的喜悦。现在的我，对成绩这个东西已经嘛了。烦恼比喜悦还要多。。。

Colbie Caillat - Fallin' For You

新年喜悦

我不能否认，这年的开始，的确比去年的年尾来得快乐。家人与亲友的陪伴与支持让我额外的感动。但有些事还是无法避免的，比如说，我还是得见那只是母狗。但，经过无数的 “睡前思考” 我终于想通了，与其抱怨，不如果自己的好生活，越想只会让我自己更痛苦，所以就不要再想它了。
那一天他还开口要我哉他回家，当然我不能拒绝他。不幸的是，他竟然坐在我隔壁。他有试着更我说话，但我也单单点了点头而已。

这是一回事，我学业方面却是另一件烦恼的问题，如何分配时间并不简单，所以我唯一可以逃离这些烦恼的事也只有运动了，可是最近却鼓起勇气再做蛋糕（很受欢迎，连自己的母亲也惊讶）
当然有人欣赏自己桌的食物，是很开心的。能吃是一种幸福，但能偎抱一个人的肚，却是更快乐的事。

昨天跟Kah Yong 他们去了sunway pyramid, 我不能不承认，我是有一点失望，原本说好要去溜冰，却在最后被取消了。我等了那么久，就是为了想和他们这班朋友一起溜冰。原本我想 “回家算了” 但我不能这样抛下他们，毕竟做人，做朋友就是要体谅，要跟群。所以就陪了kah yong 去购物，但我已经买完新年衣了，一路看下去只有一股有一股痛心。

今日，7点就起床了，心里抱着一股很害怕的感觉。为什么？因为我在等8点成绩的出炉。就在8.01时，这好意头的号码，看了成绩。。。结果是。。。
math ~> 91 (a)
physics ~> 87 (a)
biology ~> 85 (a)
chemistry (刚好2分过关) ~> 81 (a)
我希望你们看到了我的成绩，不要去告诉别人，我之所以让你们看我的blog是因为我相信你们。
=D 看到我自己也料不到的成绩，我整个人突然疯了起来，在家里乱喊乱跳。 虽然比起其他人，我成绩不算什么，但我很高兴我的付出，有好的回报。

雨声。

雨滴敲打我窗的声量越来越大，一阵一阵的寒风却吹起一曲刺耳的音乐。
心如一场雨，
一颗一颗的眼泪，就从眼眶落了下来，带着的。。。是遗憾。
虽然被冷风吹洞的心灵，被刺穿的信念，却死不了。
活在一个残酷无情的世间上，我能体会的只有无限的伤害。
但被雨水泠醒的我，学会了聆听雨声。
大雨虽然冰冷却能冲走眼泪，而教会我们在寂寞的世界上生存。

快乐就像一半， 只有一人分享。

PHILADELPHIA New York Cheesecake

my next target !!!

the mirror image....

have you wondered why you always have to be a different person when you are with different people or groups?
i did that to fit in, and now i am freaking tired of it....
especially i have been making the best out of myself trying to impress those whom i cared and turn out they just give you more and more disappointment.
this is my life, i am not making any marketing tactics nor am i trying to gain any benefit from any relationship, i want to make myself fit in and now i am tired of being the mirror image, the different forms of myself.
i am a person who enjoys time alone sometimes, and when i am alone, i expect no one to disturb my peaceful life.
when i want to be with people, i will get near people, just not assholes.
i am freaking tired of being the good guy everybody sees i am, i am just kernyen, and that's who i will be for the rest of my life.... i wont solve waste my time, solving ur math problem if i do not know how to, just because you thought i was smart.
i wont do most of the work by myself while you assholes does nothing just because you bitch thought i am hardworking.
i wont freaking help you for things i dun want to just because you thought i am a very helpful person.
i wont help you think of ideas the whole day and night just because you think i am intelligent and creative...(which i am not)
and i will definitely not try to be a taxi driver just because i am your friend and i have a car, especially when i dun want to. if i want, i will, and if i dont. buzz off!
i will not make any impression to anyone anymore. so dun expect kernyen has changed, he just came back. that's all.

sorry if i offend anyone(sincerely)
and i wont say sorry when i dun want to just because you think a man should be forgiving and open-hearted.
people always say "forgiving is not about admitting faults but shows you treasure this relationship" for me, I FOLLOW THE DAMN DICTIONARY! DUN ASK ME TO SAY SORRY FOR HIS/HER FAULT.

Ready For Love

自从被友情出卖的那一天，我再也没有完完全全的信任过其他人。今天的我，又突然发起神经病，不知道哪条神经错乱，决定了在信任别人。大概是因为有了一班好友（像亲人一样的好友） 加上关心我的家人， 让我有了一点点的安全感。当然，我还是会保留脚步，不会轻易把信任交上去，也不会盲着的把信任交给好友，因为我觉得，能被我信任的人，一定要有蛮久的交情和我一定的观察。 我不是什么大人物，当然我的信任完全不值钱。 但我想说的是，我愿意信任我觉得值得的人。。。 希望不要再失望。。。 let's hope for the best.

here's a song for you awesome people.....

大学的日子。。。

大学上了第二天，就觉得生不如死了， 接下来的六个月，我该怎么办？
累了。。。
累的不是沉重的学业压力， 而是面对着如山高的恨。 他所做的每一件事都让我额外的讨厌。
就像今天，他在巴士上，一直笑个不停，好像刚从神经病院出来似地。

想在巴士上休息也不能，幸好的我有耳机能塞着耳朵，巴士又不是他爸的，他凭什么，再把市里把自己当成是王子？想做什么就做。。。


今天，没什么特别，让我觉得恶心的只有那家伙终于开口跟那女生说话了，在班上“呛声”了那么久了才踏出第一步，不用说，这只东西也告偏了传天下这所谓的”喜事”

累了，我真的累了！ 谁能来救救我？

you're so afraid of taking chances..... how you gonna reach top?

If only.........

IF ONLY.....
If fire were cold and ice were hot,
If the desert is moist and the ocean is dry,
If the clouds are black and the soil is white,
If days were dark and nights are bright,
If cruelty is kindness and discrimination is friendly,
If only human weren't weak and petite,
If only the world weren't awful,
If only god's creation is equally inviting.
If only the world is pretty,
There would be no evil,
If only....

revealed....

REVEALED....
Doggy dog world this is,
A mistake our creator has overlook,
For his creation, the humans was a mistake,
For it has too much capability,
Too much schemes,
Too much attitude,
So very evil, so very cruel.
The beauty of world had been hidden behind the ugly figures of humans,
A sinister to true beauty,
A shadow in the brightest day.

new year's eve

i know its kinda late for me to post up the stories of how i celebrated new year's eve, but its better to be late than never.... rite ? =D
the day was bright with the streaks of morning light that shone onto my face.
the sky was so radiant and cheerful that day, but it was not even comparable to the radiant of my smile that day for i've celebrated them with my friends and family....
it all started with a refreshing exercise in the gym... and all was perfect, i exercised till i sore out, and was actually really relaxing after the near-to-vomit sensation. i feel damn HEALTHY. i think the myth of exercise curing stress is somewhat real.... the only thing special happened is that  was completely amazed at KAH YONG running on the treadmill for one continuous hour..... i guess, high school boys like him would definitely have better stamina than an old adult like me =D (i hate my age)

things got better when we headed for mission impossible.... the movie was awesome and superb, tom cruise is awesome and amazing in acting the movie, its definitely worth watching.... the only embarrassing part is that i actually shouted "woah woah WAOH" when tom cruise fell from the dubai tower...... you cant really blame me, the screening was very vivid and you all know i am an acrophobia person.

soon chee how came and we decide to shop for someone's gift. before that was hell of a mess, i went to the gym to pass my mom the ipad and saw someone was arguing with her, i could not help but to join in the fun and of course to protect my own mother..... that stupid, fat gigolo counter manager(which is a small useless staff) driven my mom to quit the membership. how dumb could he be??? if i am his boss, i would be the first to fire him, already the club does not have many members, and yet he's making people quit???? i really wanted to shout out "shut the hell up you fat bitch" but my sanity stopped me....... like always.

moving on from the fat bitch.... we went to restaurant 88 to have a nice meal, i din really like the idea of using planta as oil though, its high in cholesterol and completely alters the taste of the food.... but overall, the experience was fun and enjoyable, especially when someone amazed at the amount i've ate and the weight i've gain....
well, i guess i am just pretty lucky to have these kind of anti-fat gene..... it does not limit my food consumption. =D

当我们同在一起。。。

当我们同在一起，
我见到了我最灿烂的笑容，
我发现了真正的友情和亲情，
我体会了什么叫关怀，
什么叫真心。

当我们同在一起，
是我最快乐的时光，
是我疗伤的良药，
是我忘掉烦恼的瞬间，
是我发现安全感的时候。

当我们同一起，
一切都不一样了，
谢谢你们，把我带出了那冰冷，残酷的世界。
special thanks to my family and my best friends.... 

no title =D

不知不觉地，这一年又要过去了。。。
我只能说，今年不是什么好年。 太多太多的事情发生在我和我认识的人身上。
很明显的，我读大学这一年，读得很痛苦，特别是遇到了各种各样的怪咔。

但，患难见真情，这道理，我却体会到。留下的人不，去的人却是一大群，但最重要的是，我已经知道谁该得到我的信任和友情了。

倒是我那一班ACS的好友，把我当弟弟和哥哥看待的朋友，让我感到快乐。本以为这假期又是一个人度过，没想到却玩得比平时还要开心。
当我们同在一起，我什么烦恼都没了，也让我感到额外的有安全感。这般朋友，是我最珍惜的一群，也是我唯一让他们亲近我的一群。 我唯一害怕的事，爱得越深，伤得越痛，我不想在失去我能信赖的朋友。 可是，不要受伤，又怎能去爱呢？这道理我懂，但也不能完完全全的消掉我对友情的恐惧。
我只能说，今年的我真的是经过太多风暴了。我怕了。我不想在重复一篇那些伤感。

London Fireworks 2012 New Years Eve!!!!!

這聲巨響。。。

2011年的最後一頁，即將被翻閱。每個人的心里，都等著的一刻即將來臨。出外的出外去倒數，在家裡沒事做的就目瞪口呆的看著四四方方的電視。每個人只有一個目標，那就是等著12點，2012的來臨。
5，4，3，2，1。。。。
天空撒滿無數的煙花，那些五色繽紛花朵突然點亮了夜空。那一刻的天空就如懷著一只彩色的火鳳凰在空中散發耀眼的光芒。那一刻，那一聲巨響，突然把我的一切，給換然一新了。突然覺得自己好充實，好有新鮮感。我抱起了希望，也有了期望。
那一頁終於被翻閱了，現在新的一節有開始了。
那被翻閱的一頁，帶走了去年一切不愉快的事，它帶走了傷痛也帶走了寂寞。新的一年裡，我帶著的是已往的經驗，智慧，準備為這新的一頁裡迎戰，我懷著的是想活得快樂一些的希望。我不會再一次的讓自己傷痛，也不會再一次的把信任交給錯的人。
新的一年，新的希望，就讓一切歸零在這聲巨響。。。

那一秒起, 我不在是人质... 我自由了...