孔明点亮，生生的火焰让孔明灯高飞，成了夜空里的光明，代表的是我们一个个的祝福与希望。
孔明高飞，点亮夜间，就如黑暗里的一道光，煎熬的终点，未来的阳光。
孔明远走，把希望和祝福的信息带给了神明，渴望得到神明的保佑。
花火陪伴孔明灯在黑夜里一同带光，为这些小小的邮差们把“信” 地给我们的神明。。。
高飞吧 。。。 孔明灯！
Monday, January 30, 2012
Friday, January 27, 2012
Thursday, January 26, 2012
Wednesday, January 25, 2012
tired of rash promises.
IF YOU CANT KEEP ONE, DO NOT MAKE ONE.
if promises is just an affirmation you made to strengthen your words, please stop it right now. we need not any of your rash promises. such level are only for uncivilized beings, do not mimic them. i am sure we are all civilised people. make sure of everything before you open your mouth and speak of these words "i promise..."
if promises is just an affirmation you made to strengthen your words, please stop it right now. we need not any of your rash promises. such level are only for uncivilized beings, do not mimic them. i am sure we are all civilised people. make sure of everything before you open your mouth and speak of these words "i promise..."
新年的日子。。。
今年的新年就这样淡淡的度过，父母到burma 去旅行，把我们抛在家里。
真是一点责任感都没有，但至少，我不是一个人度过。有两位妹妹的陪伴，我也够了。
我有我有责任要照顾他们，所以我不能向我父母一样，我跟不能在新年的时候把他们放在家里自己去跟朋友聚会。我绝对不能做不仁不义的事情。
原本跟kah yong 约好的拜年计划如今又被取消了。他们不得空，我了解。
但时间是自己安排的，所谓的活动也没有理由维持整天吧？ 你不能把那一天里的一个小活动跟全天下奉告你那一天不得空吧？ 这样的事情，我见多了，只是不想特意去猜穿他们而已。
真是一点责任感都没有，但至少，我不是一个人度过。有两位妹妹的陪伴，我也够了。
我有我有责任要照顾他们，所以我不能向我父母一样，我跟不能在新年的时候把他们放在家里自己去跟朋友聚会。我绝对不能做不仁不义的事情。
原本跟kah yong 约好的拜年计划如今又被取消了。他们不得空，我了解。
但时间是自己安排的，所谓的活动也没有理由维持整天吧？ 你不能把那一天里的一个小活动跟全天下奉告你那一天不得空吧？ 这样的事情，我见多了，只是不想特意去猜穿他们而已。
做人不能这样。。。
做人不能这样。虽然别人得罪我们，就算他们有什么过错，也不论到我们因此的对待。如果我们用恶劣的方式对待他人，那我们跟他们有什么分别？我自前被自己的恨给蒙蔽了双眼，所以获得特别痛苦，我想通了，也不恨了。如果你说要把一个人当透明人，你就应该说到，做到。身为一个透明人，他的所作所为也不不会影响你，如果你反映了，你就失败了。
我不了解，礼物买了就好了，搜礼物的人知道我们的心意就好了，为什么一定要礼物到手才甘愿？收礼物的人都未曾投诉，我们有资格投诉吗？送礼是一种心意，不是在于礼物，有心就可以了。其他的，别人不负责任就让他吗。。。 如你所说的，做好自己就好了。
怨恨是一种很危险的东西，你不把它管好，他会毁了你。也因此，让身边的人受到影响。
我不了解，礼物买了就好了，搜礼物的人知道我们的心意就好了，为什么一定要礼物到手才甘愿？收礼物的人都未曾投诉，我们有资格投诉吗？送礼是一种心意，不是在于礼物，有心就可以了。其他的，别人不负责任就让他吗。。。 如你所说的，做好自己就好了。
怨恨是一种很危险的东西，你不把它管好，他会毁了你。也因此，让身边的人受到影响。
短暂。。。
我得了如此意外，惊人的成绩。高兴的感觉却只曾得了半天，现在，却越想越无趣。
我不懂为什么，也不了解为什么。但我努力这么久，牺牲那么多换来的成绩不应该只曾得了半天的喜悦。现在的我，对成绩这个东西已经嘛了。烦恼比喜悦还要多。。。
我不懂为什么，也不了解为什么。但我努力这么久，牺牲那么多换来的成绩不应该只曾得了半天的喜悦。现在的我，对成绩这个东西已经嘛了。烦恼比喜悦还要多。。。
Sunday, January 22, 2012
新年喜悦
我不能否认，这年的开始，的确比去年的年尾来得快乐。家人与亲友的陪伴与支持让我额外的感动。但有些事还是无法避免的，比如说，我还是得见那只是母狗。但，经过无数的 “睡前思考” 我终于想通了，与其抱怨，不如果自己的好生活，越想只会让我自己更痛苦，所以就不要再想它了。
那一天他还开口要我哉他回家，当然我不能拒绝他。不幸的是，他竟然坐在我隔壁。他有试着更我说话，但我也单单点了点头而已。
这是一回事，我学业方面却是另一件烦恼的问题，如何分配时间并不简单，所以我唯一可以逃离这些烦恼的事也只有运动了，可是最近却鼓起勇气再做蛋糕（很受欢迎，连自己的母亲也惊讶）
当然有人欣赏自己桌的食物，是很开心的。能吃是一种幸福，但能偎抱一个人的肚，却是更快乐的事。
昨天跟Kah Yong 他们去了sunway pyramid, 我不能不承认，我是有一点失望，原本说好要去溜冰，却在最后被取消了。我等了那么久，就是为了想和他们这班朋友一起溜冰。原本我想 “回家算了” 但我不能这样抛下他们，毕竟做人，做朋友就是要体谅，要跟群。所以就陪了kah yong 去购物，但我已经买完新年衣了，一路看下去只有一股有一股痛心。
今日，7点就起床了，心里抱着一股很害怕的感觉。为什么？因为我在等8点成绩的出炉。就在8.01时，这好意头的号码，看了成绩。。。结果是。。。
math ~> 91 (a)
physics ~> 87 (a)
biology ~> 85 (a)
chemistry (刚好2分过关) ~> 81 (a)
我希望你们看到了我的成绩，不要去告诉别人，我之所以让你们看我的blog是因为我相信你们。
=D 看到我自己也料不到的成绩，我整个人突然疯了起来，在家里乱喊乱跳。 虽然比起其他人，我成绩不算什么，但我很高兴我的付出，有好的回报。
那一天他还开口要我哉他回家，当然我不能拒绝他。不幸的是，他竟然坐在我隔壁。他有试着更我说话，但我也单单点了点头而已。
这是一回事，我学业方面却是另一件烦恼的问题，如何分配时间并不简单，所以我唯一可以逃离这些烦恼的事也只有运动了，可是最近却鼓起勇气再做蛋糕（很受欢迎，连自己的母亲也惊讶）
当然有人欣赏自己桌的食物，是很开心的。能吃是一种幸福，但能偎抱一个人的肚，却是更快乐的事。
昨天跟Kah Yong 他们去了sunway pyramid, 我不能不承认，我是有一点失望，原本说好要去溜冰，却在最后被取消了。我等了那么久，就是为了想和他们这班朋友一起溜冰。原本我想 “回家算了” 但我不能这样抛下他们，毕竟做人，做朋友就是要体谅，要跟群。所以就陪了kah yong 去购物，但我已经买完新年衣了，一路看下去只有一股有一股痛心。
今日，7点就起床了，心里抱着一股很害怕的感觉。为什么？因为我在等8点成绩的出炉。就在8.01时，这好意头的号码，看了成绩。。。结果是。。。
math ~> 91 (a)
physics ~> 87 (a)
biology ~> 85 (a)
chemistry (刚好2分过关) ~> 81 (a)
我希望你们看到了我的成绩，不要去告诉别人，我之所以让你们看我的blog是因为我相信你们。
=D 看到我自己也料不到的成绩，我整个人突然疯了起来，在家里乱喊乱跳。 虽然比起其他人，我成绩不算什么，但我很高兴我的付出，有好的回报。
Saturday, January 14, 2012
雨声。
雨滴敲打我窗的声量越来越大，一阵一阵的寒风却吹起一曲刺耳的音乐。
心如一场雨，
一颗一颗的眼泪，就从眼眶落了下来，带着的。。。是遗憾。
虽然被冷风吹洞的心灵，被刺穿的信念，却死不了。
活在一个残酷无情的世间上，我能体会的只有无限的伤害。
但被雨水泠醒的我，学会了聆听雨声。
大雨虽然冰冷却能冲走眼泪，而教会我们在寂寞的世界上生存。
心如一场雨，
一颗一颗的眼泪，就从眼眶落了下来，带着的。。。是遗憾。
虽然被冷风吹洞的心灵，被刺穿的信念，却死不了。
活在一个残酷无情的世间上，我能体会的只有无限的伤害。
但被雨水泠醒的我，学会了聆听雨声。
大雨虽然冰冷却能冲走眼泪，而教会我们在寂寞的世界上生存。
Friday, January 13, 2012
Wednesday, January 11, 2012
the mirror image....
have you wondered why you always have to be a different person when you are with different people or groups?
i did that to fit in, and now i am freaking tired of it....
especially i have been making the best out of myself trying to impress those whom i cared and turn out they just give you more and more disappointment.
this is my life, i am not making any marketing tactics nor am i trying to gain any benefit from any relationship, i want to make myself fit in and now i am tired of being the mirror image, the different forms of myself.
i am a person who enjoys time alone sometimes, and when i am alone, i expect no one to disturb my peaceful life.
when i want to be with people, i will get near people, just not assholes.
i am freaking tired of being the good guy everybody sees i am, i am just kernyen, and that's who i will be for the rest of my life.... i wont solve waste my time, solving ur math problem if i do not know how to, just because you thought i was smart.
i wont do most of the work by myself while you assholes does nothing just because you bitch thought i am hardworking.
i wont freaking help you for things i dun want to just because you thought i am a very helpful person.
i wont help you think of ideas the whole day and night just because you think i am intelligent and creative...(which i am not)
and i will definitely not try to be a taxi driver just because i am your friend and i have a car, especially when i dun want to. if i want, i will, and if i dont. buzz off!
i will not make any impression to anyone anymore. so dun expect kernyen has changed, he just came back. that's all.
sorry if i offend anyone(sincerely)
and i wont say sorry when i dun want to just because you think a man should be forgiving and open-hearted.
people always say "forgiving is not about admitting faults but shows you treasure this relationship" for me, I FOLLOW THE DAMN DICTIONARY! DUN ASK ME TO SAY SORRY FOR HIS/HER FAULT.
i did that to fit in, and now i am freaking tired of it....
especially i have been making the best out of myself trying to impress those whom i cared and turn out they just give you more and more disappointment.
this is my life, i am not making any marketing tactics nor am i trying to gain any benefit from any relationship, i want to make myself fit in and now i am tired of being the mirror image, the different forms of myself.
i am a person who enjoys time alone sometimes, and when i am alone, i expect no one to disturb my peaceful life.
when i want to be with people, i will get near people, just not assholes.
i am freaking tired of being the good guy everybody sees i am, i am just kernyen, and that's who i will be for the rest of my life.... i wont solve waste my time, solving ur math problem if i do not know how to, just because you thought i was smart.
i wont do most of the work by myself while you assholes does nothing just because you bitch thought i am hardworking.
i wont freaking help you for things i dun want to just because you thought i am a very helpful person.
i wont help you think of ideas the whole day and night just because you think i am intelligent and creative...(which i am not)
and i will definitely not try to be a taxi driver just because i am your friend and i have a car, especially when i dun want to. if i want, i will, and if i dont. buzz off!
i will not make any impression to anyone anymore. so dun expect kernyen has changed, he just came back. that's all.
sorry if i offend anyone(sincerely)
and i wont say sorry when i dun want to just because you think a man should be forgiving and open-hearted.
people always say "forgiving is not about admitting faults but shows you treasure this relationship" for me, I FOLLOW THE DAMN DICTIONARY! DUN ASK ME TO SAY SORRY FOR HIS/HER FAULT.
Ready For Love
自从被友情出卖的那一天，我再也没有完完全全的信任过其他人。今天的我，又突然发起神经病，不知道哪条神经错乱，决定了在信任别人。大概是因为有了一班好友（像亲人一样的好友） 加上关心我的家人， 让我有了一点点的安全感。当然，我还是会保留脚步，不会轻易把信任交上去，也不会盲着的把信任交给好友，因为我觉得，能被我信任的人，一定要有蛮久的交情和我一定的观察。 我不是什么大人物，当然我的信任完全不值钱。 但我想说的是，我愿意信任我觉得值得的人。。。 希望不要再失望。。。 let's hope for the best.
here's a song for you awesome people.....
here's a song for you awesome people.....
大学的日子。。。
大学上了第二天，就觉得生不如死了， 接下来的六个月，我该怎么办？
累了。。。
累的不是沉重的学业压力， 而是面对着如山高的恨。 他所做的每一件事都让我额外的讨厌。
就像今天，他在巴士上，一直笑个不停，好像刚从神经病院出来似地。
想在巴士上休息也不能，幸好的我有耳机能塞着耳朵，巴士又不是他爸的，他凭什么，再把市里把自己当成是王子？想做什么就做。。。
今天，没什么特别，让我觉得恶心的只有那家伙终于开口跟那女生说话了，在班上“呛声”了那么久了才踏出第一步，不用说，这只东西也告偏了传天下这所谓的”喜事”
累了，我真的累了！ 谁能来救救我？
累了。。。
累的不是沉重的学业压力， 而是面对着如山高的恨。 他所做的每一件事都让我额外的讨厌。
就像今天，他在巴士上，一直笑个不停，好像刚从神经病院出来似地。
想在巴士上休息也不能，幸好的我有耳机能塞着耳朵，巴士又不是他爸的，他凭什么，再把市里把自己当成是王子？想做什么就做。。。
今天，没什么特别，让我觉得恶心的只有那家伙终于开口跟那女生说话了，在班上“呛声”了那么久了才踏出第一步，不用说，这只东西也告偏了传天下这所谓的”喜事”
累了，我真的累了！ 谁能来救救我？
Friday, January 6, 2012
Tuesday, January 3, 2012
If only.........
If fire were cold and ice were hot,
If the desert is moist and the ocean is dry,
If the clouds are black and the soil is white,
If days were dark and nights are bright,
If cruelty is kindness and discrimination is friendly,
If only human weren't weak and petite,
If only the world weren't awful,
If only god's creation is equally inviting.
If only the world is pretty,
There would be no evil,
If only....
revealed....
REVEALED....Doggy dog world this is,
A mistake our creator has overlook,
For his creation, the humans was a mistake,
For it has too much capability,
Too much schemes,
Too much attitude,
So very evil, so very cruel.
The beauty of world had been hidden behind the ugly figures of humans,
A sinister to true beauty,
A shadow in the brightest day.
new year's eve
i know its kinda late for me to post up the stories of how i celebrated new year's eve, but its better to be late than never.... rite ? =D
the day was bright with the streaks of morning light that shone onto my face.
the sky was so radiant and cheerful that day, but it was not even comparable to the radiant of my smile that day for i've celebrated them with my friends and family....
it all started with a refreshing exercise in the gym... and all was perfect, i exercised till i sore out, and was actually really relaxing after the near-to-vomit sensation. i feel damn HEALTHY. i think the myth of exercise curing stress is somewhat real.... the only thing special happened is that was completely amazed at KAH YONG running on the treadmill for one continuous hour..... i guess, high school boys like him would definitely have better stamina than an old adult like me =D (i hate my age)
things got better when we headed for mission impossible.... the movie was awesome and superb, tom cruise is awesome and amazing in acting the movie, its definitely worth watching.... the only embarrassing part is that i actually shouted "woah woah WAOH" when tom cruise fell from the dubai tower...... you cant really blame me, the screening was very vivid and you all know i am an acrophobia person.
soon chee how came and we decide to shop for someone's gift. before that was hell of a mess, i went to the gym to pass my mom the ipad and saw someone was arguing with her, i could not help but to join in the fun and of course to protect my own mother..... that stupid, fat gigolo counter manager(which is a small useless staff) driven my mom to quit the membership. how dumb could he be??? if i am his boss, i would be the first to fire him, already the club does not have many members, and yet he's making people quit???? i really wanted to shout out "shut the hell up you fat bitch" but my sanity stopped me....... like always.
moving on from the fat bitch.... we went to restaurant 88 to have a nice meal, i din really like the idea of using planta as oil though, its high in cholesterol and completely alters the taste of the food.... but overall, the experience was fun and enjoyable, especially when someone amazed at the amount i've ate and the weight i've gain....
well, i guess i am just pretty lucky to have these kind of anti-fat gene..... it does not limit my food consumption. =D
the day was bright with the streaks of morning light that shone onto my face.
the sky was so radiant and cheerful that day, but it was not even comparable to the radiant of my smile that day for i've celebrated them with my friends and family....
it all started with a refreshing exercise in the gym... and all was perfect, i exercised till i sore out, and was actually really relaxing after the near-to-vomit sensation. i feel damn HEALTHY. i think the myth of exercise curing stress is somewhat real.... the only thing special happened is that was completely amazed at KAH YONG running on the treadmill for one continuous hour..... i guess, high school boys like him would definitely have better stamina than an old adult like me =D (i hate my age)
things got better when we headed for mission impossible.... the movie was awesome and superb, tom cruise is awesome and amazing in acting the movie, its definitely worth watching.... the only embarrassing part is that i actually shouted "woah woah WAOH" when tom cruise fell from the dubai tower...... you cant really blame me, the screening was very vivid and you all know i am an acrophobia person.
soon chee how came and we decide to shop for someone's gift. before that was hell of a mess, i went to the gym to pass my mom the ipad and saw someone was arguing with her, i could not help but to join in the fun and of course to protect my own mother..... that stupid, fat gigolo counter manager(which is a small useless staff) driven my mom to quit the membership. how dumb could he be??? if i am his boss, i would be the first to fire him, already the club does not have many members, and yet he's making people quit???? i really wanted to shout out "shut the hell up you fat bitch" but my sanity stopped me....... like always.
moving on from the fat bitch.... we went to restaurant 88 to have a nice meal, i din really like the idea of using planta as oil though, its high in cholesterol and completely alters the taste of the food.... but overall, the experience was fun and enjoyable, especially when someone amazed at the amount i've ate and the weight i've gain....well, i guess i am just pretty lucky to have these kind of anti-fat gene..... it does not limit my food consumption. =D
当我们同在一起。。。
当我们同在一起，
我见到了我最灿烂的笑容，
我发现了真正的友情和亲情，
我体会了什么叫关怀，
什么叫真心。
当我们同在一起，
是我最快乐的时光，
是我疗伤的良药，
是我忘掉烦恼的瞬间，
是我发现安全感的时候。
当我们同一起，
一切都不一样了，
谢谢你们，把我带出了那冰冷，残酷的世界。
special thanks to my family and my best friends....
我见到了我最灿烂的笑容，
我发现了真正的友情和亲情，
我体会了什么叫关怀，
什么叫真心。
当我们同在一起，
是我最快乐的时光，
是我疗伤的良药，
是我忘掉烦恼的瞬间，
是我发现安全感的时候。
当我们同一起，
一切都不一样了，
谢谢你们，把我带出了那冰冷，残酷的世界。
special thanks to my family and my best friends....
no title =D
不知不觉地，这一年又要过去了。。。
我只能说，今年不是什么好年。 太多太多的事情发生在我和我认识的人身上。
很明显的，我读大学这一年，读得很痛苦，特别是遇到了各种各样的怪咔。
但，患难见真情，这道理，我却体会到。留下的人不，去的人却是一大群，但最重要的是，我已经知道谁该得到我的信任和友情了。
倒是我那一班ACS的好友，把我当弟弟和哥哥看待的朋友，让我感到快乐。本以为这假期又是一个人度过，没想到却玩得比平时还要开心。
当我们同在一起，我什么烦恼都没了，也让我感到额外的有安全感。这般朋友，是我最珍惜的一群，也是我唯一让他们亲近我的一群。 我唯一害怕的事，爱得越深，伤得越痛，我不想在失去我能信赖的朋友。 可是，不要受伤，又怎能去爱呢？这道理我懂，但也不能完完全全的消掉我对友情的恐惧。
我只能说，今年的我真的是经过太多风暴了。我怕了。我不想在重复一篇那些伤感。
我只能说，今年不是什么好年。 太多太多的事情发生在我和我认识的人身上。
很明显的，我读大学这一年，读得很痛苦，特别是遇到了各种各样的怪咔。
但，患难见真情，这道理，我却体会到。留下的人不，去的人却是一大群，但最重要的是，我已经知道谁该得到我的信任和友情了。
倒是我那一班ACS的好友，把我当弟弟和哥哥看待的朋友，让我感到快乐。本以为这假期又是一个人度过，没想到却玩得比平时还要开心。
当我们同在一起，我什么烦恼都没了，也让我感到额外的有安全感。这般朋友，是我最珍惜的一群，也是我唯一让他们亲近我的一群。 我唯一害怕的事，爱得越深，伤得越痛，我不想在失去我能信赖的朋友。 可是，不要受伤，又怎能去爱呢？这道理我懂，但也不能完完全全的消掉我对友情的恐惧。
我只能说，今年的我真的是经过太多风暴了。我怕了。我不想在重复一篇那些伤感。
這聲巨響。。。
2011年的最後一頁，即將被翻閱。每個人的心里，都等著的一刻即將來臨。出外的出外去倒數，在家裡沒事做的就目瞪口呆的看著四四方方的電視。每個人只有一個目標，那就是等著12點，2012的來臨。
5，4，3，2，1。。。。
天空撒滿無數的煙花，那些五色繽紛花朵突然點亮了夜空。那一刻的天空就如懷著一只彩色的火鳳凰在空中散發耀眼的光芒。那一刻，那一聲巨響，突然把我的一切，給換然一新了。突然覺得自己好充實，好有新鮮感。我抱起了希望，也有了期望。
那一頁終於被翻閱了，現在新的一節有開始了。
那被翻閱的一頁，帶走了去年一切不愉快的事，它帶走了傷痛也帶走了寂寞。新的一年裡，我帶著的是已往的經驗，智慧，準備為這新的一頁裡迎戰，我懷著的是想活得快樂一些的希望。我不會再一次的讓自己傷痛，也不會再一次的把信任交給錯的人。
新的一年，新的希望，就讓一切歸零在這聲巨響。。。
5，4，3，2，1。。。。
天空撒滿無數的煙花，那些五色繽紛花朵突然點亮了夜空。那一刻的天空就如懷著一只彩色的火鳳凰在空中散發耀眼的光芒。那一刻，那一聲巨響，突然把我的一切，給換然一新了。突然覺得自己好充實，好有新鮮感。我抱起了希望，也有了期望。
那一頁終於被翻閱了，現在新的一節有開始了。
那被翻閱的一頁，帶走了去年一切不愉快的事，它帶走了傷痛也帶走了寂寞。新的一年裡，我帶著的是已往的經驗，智慧，準備為這新的一頁裡迎戰，我懷著的是想活得快樂一些的希望。我不會再一次的讓自己傷痛，也不會再一次的把信任交給錯的人。
新的一年，新的希望，就讓一切歸零在這聲巨響。。。
那一秒起, 我不在是人质... 我自由了...
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