洪水强的雷雨。。。
活尸般的躺着。。。
高密度的隐着。。。
北极冷的心肠。。。
无情酷的表情。。。
无命体的生活。。。
无耐的提醒着。。。
无情,无意,无爱,无恨。。。。。。无痛。
Tuesday, November 27, 2012
Sunday, November 18, 2012
Winter chills...
The wind gust with freezing breeze, while winter's chill rose up my spine. Walking alone in the streets with dimmed lights, solitaire on a christmas night with the moon barely lighthen. The din of conversations spread from houses, cotages and even shacks, through atmosphere as they vibrate among particles within space to reach my ear.
"look at them... Look at yourself..." i soliloquized.
a lonesome ranger strolling around on a winter night, with no one to love, no one to share joy, and barely alive inside.
The heart is too frozen to warm others', the joy too rotten to give and the love... too little to spare.
A mansion filled with gold, yet the poorest guy with no one to hold.
Saturday, November 17, 2012
Broken
A broken bone, a torn ligament, and even a deep wound can mend with time... but never a broken heart.
It is can only be hidden, forgotten and camouflaged... as we learn to fake a smile behind the oozing pain that flows out from it's wound.Sticks and stone, may break bones, but words causes more harm than physical injuries... it is a lifetime wound, a wound that never heals.
[官方HQ]A-Lin 給我一個理由忘記(MV完整版)
給我一個理由忘記... 我们拥有的那些回忆...我们那深刻的友情...
給我一個理由忘記... 忘记我们的一切..............................................
給我一個理由忘記... 你.
Friday, November 16, 2012
咖啡...
热腾腾的它,
散发着香浓浓的味道,
奔放着一团团的蒸气,
解放着热呼呼的气息,
它不是灵药,
却能愈合心上的伤痕,
它不是解药,
却能解散眼里的泪水,
它不是麻药,
却能麻醉感情的疼痛,
它不是忘情水,
却能让人暂时忘了往事,
什么都不是的它...
却能温暖我已冰冻的心...
Thursday, November 15, 2012
lost and trapped.
Lost...
i no longer see,
i no longer listens,
trapped...
trap in my own world,
a world of despair,
of depression...
i am lost... and i have lost.
i no longer see,
i no longer listens,
trapped...
trap in my own world,
a world of despair,
of depression...
i am lost... and i have lost.
life's a broken balance...
society of imbalances,
world of inequality,
Verse of humans,
born so different,
so unique...
Some were loved,
others were disposed,
life's a broken balance,
a balance of life that was never reached,
never equal.
Wednesday, November 14, 2012
I called it.... Epiphany.
Its not about the money? Its not about the fame? i guess its another perception used to deceive people with inabilities to manipulate, who lacks intelligence, and people that had lost grip of reality.
Am i cruel? No, i am being realistic. Am i pessimistic? No, i am facing the true faces of society. Am i demonic? No, i am adapting to survive.
People say its not about the price tag, but how often do the society view a homeless person on the street with a less-than-perfect appearance, the equal of a pop star with ripped body, loaded, and perhaps almost charming appearance? will you? will I? to be honest, neither will I.
In today's society, how much does kindness worth? how much does being honest pays? and how much does being yourself gets you in life? A sense of pitiful from others? i think so.
We say money cant buy happiness, but how often do we see a homeless guy on the street enjoys his life better than a person living in a bungalow? NONE. in fact, would u rather cry on a bicycle or a Porsche with a few charming whores comforting you?
YOU SAY MONEY CANT BUY LOVE? do you really believe in that? Hahaha.
And of course, in today's society, the degree of rotten has become more than severe and its rancid stench almost brimming in atmosphere if not already pervaded into the air in you house, if i were to describe its situation.
Money used to be the measuring tool of the status you are in, that determines the amount of attention you get, and the basically everything else. Today? Haha, things as simple as your family background, your appearance, your attitude, your habit and even your lifestyle becomes a measuring tool to the society that if people should be even giving you their so call precious attention. These measuring tools not only exist, they are well developing silently, and quite rapidly too.
YOU THINK YOU AREN'T ONE OF THEM? THINK AGAIN. How often do you rather wipe your boss's shoe rather than helping your old haggard parent, barely able to stand, to tie his shoe? THINK!
YOU THINK YOU ARE NOT ONE OF THEM? YOU ARE WRONG. We cannot escape the fact that people in this world are just as discriminative, and we can never claim equality in any form. Men used to be dominant in leading the world, soon be replaced by women in current era, but does that proves equality? NO! it is just a switch in dominance in which women are taking control. I, however, have no issue or in any right mind offending the fact that women are smarter, more capable, this is just a mere example.
YOU ARE ONE OF THEM!!! WE ALL ARE, YOU, I, US, THEY, ALL! Do not deny the fact that when a gangster looking street boy threatens to punch someone, he is all demonic, he is supposedly ferocious, malicious, mischievous, miscellaneous and a sinister on leash. But when a popular artist such as Chris brown, has actually brutally assaulted the person that has given him love and compassion, he was labelled "he's too deeply in love that he acted out on anger, he should be forgiven"
WE CANNOT DENY how we throw more concentration on the "popular friend", more of our affection, our care and our friendship compare to the guy next to you, whom borrows you his notes, given his time to teach you and cares bout the friend you are to him.
It is not whether ifs.... but how much we choose to cling on this sad reality. And like all reality, time will soon replace these "expensive" people with new ones. And like all items on market... there will be some declining in market price, while some rises with time... so are humans... so very HUMANE...
WE SWITCH SIDES. WE SWITCH POLES. AND WE STAND ALONGSIDE THE STRONGEST ONES. CHOOSING FRIENDS. CHOOSING SIDES. CHOOSING DOMINANCE. A completely harsh reality WE CANNOT DENY...
you may ask for my suddenness switch in attitude....
.
.
but
.
.
.
.
I called it..... epiphany.
Am i cruel? No, i am being realistic. Am i pessimistic? No, i am facing the true faces of society. Am i demonic? No, i am adapting to survive.
People say its not about the price tag, but how often do the society view a homeless person on the street with a less-than-perfect appearance, the equal of a pop star with ripped body, loaded, and perhaps almost charming appearance? will you? will I? to be honest, neither will I.
In today's society, how much does kindness worth? how much does being honest pays? and how much does being yourself gets you in life? A sense of pitiful from others? i think so.
We say money cant buy happiness, but how often do we see a homeless guy on the street enjoys his life better than a person living in a bungalow? NONE. in fact, would u rather cry on a bicycle or a Porsche with a few charming whores comforting you?
YOU SAY MONEY CANT BUY LOVE? do you really believe in that? Hahaha.
And of course, in today's society, the degree of rotten has become more than severe and its rancid stench almost brimming in atmosphere if not already pervaded into the air in you house, if i were to describe its situation.
Money used to be the measuring tool of the status you are in, that determines the amount of attention you get, and the basically everything else. Today? Haha, things as simple as your family background, your appearance, your attitude, your habit and even your lifestyle becomes a measuring tool to the society that if people should be even giving you their so call precious attention. These measuring tools not only exist, they are well developing silently, and quite rapidly too.
YOU THINK YOU AREN'T ONE OF THEM? THINK AGAIN. How often do you rather wipe your boss's shoe rather than helping your old haggard parent, barely able to stand, to tie his shoe? THINK!
YOU THINK YOU ARE NOT ONE OF THEM? YOU ARE WRONG. We cannot escape the fact that people in this world are just as discriminative, and we can never claim equality in any form. Men used to be dominant in leading the world, soon be replaced by women in current era, but does that proves equality? NO! it is just a switch in dominance in which women are taking control. I, however, have no issue or in any right mind offending the fact that women are smarter, more capable, this is just a mere example.
YOU ARE ONE OF THEM!!! WE ALL ARE, YOU, I, US, THEY, ALL! Do not deny the fact that when a gangster looking street boy threatens to punch someone, he is all demonic, he is supposedly ferocious, malicious, mischievous, miscellaneous and a sinister on leash. But when a popular artist such as Chris brown, has actually brutally assaulted the person that has given him love and compassion, he was labelled "he's too deeply in love that he acted out on anger, he should be forgiven"
WE CANNOT DENY how we throw more concentration on the "popular friend", more of our affection, our care and our friendship compare to the guy next to you, whom borrows you his notes, given his time to teach you and cares bout the friend you are to him.
It is not whether ifs.... but how much we choose to cling on this sad reality. And like all reality, time will soon replace these "expensive" people with new ones. And like all items on market... there will be some declining in market price, while some rises with time... so are humans... so very HUMANE...
WE SWITCH SIDES. WE SWITCH POLES. AND WE STAND ALONGSIDE THE STRONGEST ONES. CHOOSING FRIENDS. CHOOSING SIDES. CHOOSING DOMINANCE. A completely harsh reality WE CANNOT DENY...
you may ask for my suddenness switch in attitude....
.
.
but
.
.
.
.
I called it..... epiphany.
Friday, November 9, 2012
Darkest hours before dawn....
It's 3am in the morning, consciousness began to slip away from my mind as comfortness rise to a climax. Pillows and blankets wrapped around like an embrace of a mother, but I just could not fall asleep. Bits of depression had kept my petite heart pounding in anger, and my mind raging with memories....
I could not help but think the ignorance I was treated with, the discrimination of which I call him brother. Hormones surged into my brain, keeping anger at its boiling point. The mind would not stop reminding itself of the horrors in the betrayal of a dear friend.
Has history repeated itself? Or am I began to turn moronic that I believed and throw myself into a trap I once fallen? Am I to naive to had thought he changed? Or is this just the way god is reminding me to face reality?
SHHHHHHHHHH!!! I shouted myself out of annoyance. Perhaps I have gone mad, gone completely mad with overdose of anger and a spoonful of "thinking too much" remedies, lethal combination indeed. It has always fascinated me how human indulge in pain subconciously by feeding depression, anger, and anxiety with more thoughts causing them to fall into deeper pain. But here I am forcing myself to think of the ignorance of a dear brother which killed a part of myself.
What did I do to deserve such coldness while he could be so interactive with the others? Was it me? Or it was never meant for our frequency to resonate at the same hertz? Perhaps that is why we belonged to most extremes of worlds.
Little did I realise it wasn't me but him, an epiphany which kicked in late.
"Friends are forever" has always been my motto, simply because I give in initiatives to keep friends beside. Some say friends come and go, perhaps they are just too shameful to face their inability to keep someone , EVEN ONE, long enough. Little did I realize it wasn't my fault he couldn't keep me as his lifetime friend, and maybe even more..... A real brother instead, it wasn't my fault he choose to be discriminative and ignorant, and it definitely isn't my fault he is too lazy to reply. And one thing is certain as well, it is not my loss if he losses a lifetime friendship, and a brother, he should now take responsibility of his choice of action. Was it my loss, if I stop investing time on crooks? Definitely not.
And I feel shame, and grieves for a person with lots of friends but has no life long friendships, a person with many people around him.... Which he had to impress. Also, someone with lots of karma to pay. What I could say?
Pathetic, just pathetic....
I could not help but think the ignorance I was treated with, the discrimination of which I call him brother. Hormones surged into my brain, keeping anger at its boiling point. The mind would not stop reminding itself of the horrors in the betrayal of a dear friend.
Has history repeated itself? Or am I began to turn moronic that I believed and throw myself into a trap I once fallen? Am I to naive to had thought he changed? Or is this just the way god is reminding me to face reality?
SHHHHHHHHHH!!! I shouted myself out of annoyance. Perhaps I have gone mad, gone completely mad with overdose of anger and a spoonful of "thinking too much" remedies, lethal combination indeed. It has always fascinated me how human indulge in pain subconciously by feeding depression, anger, and anxiety with more thoughts causing them to fall into deeper pain. But here I am forcing myself to think of the ignorance of a dear brother which killed a part of myself.
What did I do to deserve such coldness while he could be so interactive with the others? Was it me? Or it was never meant for our frequency to resonate at the same hertz? Perhaps that is why we belonged to most extremes of worlds.
Little did I realise it wasn't me but him, an epiphany which kicked in late.
"Friends are forever" has always been my motto, simply because I give in initiatives to keep friends beside. Some say friends come and go, perhaps they are just too shameful to face their inability to keep someone , EVEN ONE, long enough. Little did I realize it wasn't my fault he couldn't keep me as his lifetime friend, and maybe even more..... A real brother instead, it wasn't my fault he choose to be discriminative and ignorant, and it definitely isn't my fault he is too lazy to reply. And one thing is certain as well, it is not my loss if he losses a lifetime friendship, and a brother, he should now take responsibility of his choice of action. Was it my loss, if I stop investing time on crooks? Definitely not.
And I feel shame, and grieves for a person with lots of friends but has no life long friendships, a person with many people around him.... Which he had to impress. Also, someone with lots of karma to pay. What I could say?
Pathetic, just pathetic....
Monday, November 5, 2012
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