Tiredness paralyzed my conscious body, but it costs when it drain the energy of the brain... the centre of perfection and excellence...
i came with a dream and a hope to score well, as well as fulfill my need for perfection. i realized it's almost impossible, let alone getting close to it.
Just today, tiredness and drained mind due to post PBL session had my brain "cramped" of thoughts and as well restricted my ability to think...
Oh how have i performed stupidity at my best...
to have connected, miraculously, ketogenic&glucogenic amino acids with purely glucogenic acids...
Not to mention there already was a slight sensation of regret for reading too much over a subject that i have missed and forgotten the basics of the chapter... stupid.... and yet the basics are the one that are being tested.
was my perception of a doctor needing to know much wrong? or is there a more shallow differentiation of being a doctor? that we actually do not need to know that much? is gaining knowledge somewhat wrong? painful?
nevertheless, it was hard getting through the fact that i did not score very much well in Anatomy exam because i was reading too much into details... but it seemed i am repeating the same mistake. At this point of life, i do not know which to choose, curiosity and along with thirst for knowledge or fulfilling the need of my perfectionism...
the first 3 mistake found on today's mishap was already hard to swallow, only to found out the further FOUR silly mistakes that WASN'T suppose to happen ( but it did anyway.... stupid )
perhaps i have gone cuckoo with examination marks and performance... and had dwell too deep into egoism... and became thirsty in proving my significance in the class... i am lost... i am lost...
how can i keep up with my "wants" with my ability limited very much by the lack of intelligence that i was born with? i ain't a genius... but is it wrong wanting to be one?
i have gone too far only to missed the very most basics... same in studies, similar in life....
i am lost.... in a desert of my deep desires...
i came with a dream and a hope to score well, as well as fulfill my need for perfection. i realized it's almost impossible, let alone getting close to it.Just today, tiredness and drained mind due to post PBL session had my brain "cramped" of thoughts and as well restricted my ability to think...
Oh how have i performed stupidity at my best...
to have connected, miraculously, ketogenic&glucogenic amino acids with purely glucogenic acids...
Not to mention there already was a slight sensation of regret for reading too much over a subject that i have missed and forgotten the basics of the chapter... stupid.... and yet the basics are the one that are being tested.
was my perception of a doctor needing to know much wrong? or is there a more shallow differentiation of being a doctor? that we actually do not need to know that much? is gaining knowledge somewhat wrong? painful?
nevertheless, it was hard getting through the fact that i did not score very much well in Anatomy exam because i was reading too much into details... but it seemed i am repeating the same mistake. At this point of life, i do not know which to choose, curiosity and along with thirst for knowledge or fulfilling the need of my perfectionism...
the first 3 mistake found on today's mishap was already hard to swallow, only to found out the further FOUR silly mistakes that WASN'T suppose to happen ( but it did anyway.... stupid )
perhaps i have gone cuckoo with examination marks and performance... and had dwell too deep into egoism... and became thirsty in proving my significance in the class... i am lost... i am lost...
how can i keep up with my "wants" with my ability limited very much by the lack of intelligence that i was born with? i ain't a genius... but is it wrong wanting to be one?
i have gone too far only to missed the very most basics... same in studies, similar in life....
i am lost.... in a desert of my deep desires...
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