Much more than that...

How many of a times have we foolishly wasted our time malingering around our negative emotions? Wastin our days hiding in bed sheets or stuffing ourselves with sugary "cures" or sips of alcohol and approach the death touch of drugs just to ease the "pain" we perceived ourselves to be suffering? 

We let emotions grab hold of us and allows it to destroy us down to nothing and then blame the entire world for it? Isn't this sense of self pity utterly pitiful? Especially in the eyes of the third world country, where citizens are getting through the days with sickness, actual physical pain, hunger and thirst. In the time of real suffering, would we care about this little bit of self torturing depression? 

I decided to find out my answer by fasting in the month of Ramadan, my experiences comes to a shocking conclusion even to myself, a person who dwells so much into self pity. Hunger aside, the constant thirst is excruciatingly painful, I could feel every inch of my body dehydrated, my skin dried and warm unable to homeostasize the heat as I no longer have enough fluid to sweat, my eyes were in constant pain as my intraocular pressure begun dropping, to an extent, I do not even have any salivation causing my entire oral hygiene to resemble the cleanliness of a dump. 

Then it came to me, an epiphany, I did not even have a second to think about the the bullshit emotions that has been troubling me for the past 1 year. 

My body was in a state of struggle, placing survival at the top most priority. 

So as to say, what is true pain? We complained so much of depression and have research showing its similarity to physical pain, endless MRIs, Paychological reports and millions of surveys, in the end, what does it really proves? 

In the face of true pain, the fear of death, the only pain our mind could perceive remains, since the beginning of evolution till date, physical pain. 

So why do we allow an non existence pain to detiriorate us into suffering a true pain? We allow ourselves to dwell in emotional depression and let it destroys our future, wouldn't that made equivalent to self suicidal ? And those that committed suicide because of the inability to comprehend emotions, isn't that just a waste of life? 

Happiness is a state of mind, and the mind is only what we allow it to become, before we dwell in emotions, before we allow it to destroy ourselves and brings about true suffering... It is only ourselves and ourselves only that could pull us out of self pity. 

Because if a child could smile and play in the rain, why can't we shine our own light through the dark clouds?