Seasons of love...

The first was spring, she was the beginning of everything. With her, i realise the meaning of love, how it felt, and how agonizing it is. Her blooms of beauty were blazing, captivating and awe-inspiring. She would be the petals of fresh picked flowers dangling with the breeze around me. However, like all flowers, they never live forever. I moved on with a broken heart once i found out she already had someone.

But hopes never let me down as years later i found my winter. Cold as she is, cool as her expression, she was warm. She started out as a friend that grew into a gruesome winter storm that has no ending. The snow maybe beautiful, fun to play with, and pretty much attractive, but any longer connection sends you off to an awful break of influenza or worse, hypothermia. She never knew how i felt, or perhaps she does, but this series of forbidden love have no way to continue. As hard as it was, the coldness of winter has forced me to froze my heart.

Quickly, i found my summer, she was warm, she was sunny, and she is cheerful. Spending time with her is probably the most cheering experience in live. She has a smile that could light up the day, but as sunny as she is. Things could burn into flames if expose to heat for too long. She became dangerous, she became a sinister, but the craving for endorphins were high which end up in a series of heartaches with ignorance. It was a lesson to learn...never play with fire.

finally it was autumn, she seemed like the final, the ending, a final closure to the love story in my life, her autumn breeze were chilling, not too hot neither too cold. There werent any flowers just dead leaves which probably may turn into humus that could nourish the next generation. She is pretty, she is caring, and she gives good advice. Sure she have some attitude issues, but then again, who doesnt?
It seems so perfect with things going into one piece. However, dreams are still mere illusions, hopes that could never realise. Her perfection certainly does not deserve a low life like me, especially with long periods of time that i will be abroad. But that wasnt the kill switch. My heart died a lil when i found out she had a crush on someone else.